Was thinking of dojin while masturbating with a fake toy .....but when he got the real dea...

I doubt this manhwa is that deep, but I do understand Hyesung reaction in some point. I was sexually assaulted when I was 12 and that lead me to have intimacy issues, well in my adulthood. I would want my boyfriend touch n try to enjoy sex but then feelings n thoughts just came by, feeling guilty for enjoying it, thinking this is gross due to past trauma n end up crying in a mess while on top of him, n yeah basically being traumatized. I did go to therapy in the end, but yeah, could happen and kinda common for some who had less than savory experience with sex

So... I can masturbate thinking about some guy’s dick, and that makes it ok for him to fuck me? Even after I’ve said no fuck off? (No hate)

I don't know how others work ...but usually when you think of someone while "masturbating" its usually because you wish you were doing it with them .... especially when it's ur partner ....