I need help

Let's sum it up because I'm going crazy.

Jinsol doesn't love Saegye. He gave up everyone since begining because he can only lie and everybody are gonna leave him when they came to know it. He definitely hates his life and yourself for deceiving Saegye. Being with him woke sth up in his broken heart but it didn't stop him from ruining Saegye life.
It looks that after ending this stalker and case with his father he is going to disappear. Probably he wants to commit suicide, idk.

I want him to be bad guy so much because Saegye is my spiritual animal (favourite character ever) and I know how much this baby is hurt BUT. I can't forget some words of Jinsol:

'Is lying an ability that can only be used to decive others? What if you could lie to yourself too?'

What if Jinsol is lying to yourself about, for example, his feelings to Saegye? He doesn't know what is truth anymore. He just had to get this dare ability, he can't back off. But he can't stop think about him after everything.

On the other hand, Saegye. Ah, Saegye. He still loves this lying bitch, no one can disagree. Jinsol is his everything, he wants to find real him after everything this bitch had done to him (I'm crying when I think about it).

However, thanks to spoilers send by peevacorn (god bless you) it seems like Saegye is turning back to Jinsol. His eyes are full of hate. Surprisingly eyes of Jinsol are like suprised, hurted?! What tf happend.

I still hope for happy end because it's way too easy to make a bad end to this story. It's so f***ed up that after some time both Jinsol and Saegye will kill themselves.
Anyway, from spoilers I think that soon it will be roles reversal. Seagye will come to really hate Jinsol and Jinsol will realize his feelings.

It would be so satisfying to watch him desperate because Saegye is desperate too and Jinsol is running away!
He lies to myself, he wants to be bad guy. But he isn't! This lying bitch is broken, he needs love and help. He doesn't want to forgive myself and because of that he can't see people around him. It's not his fault. He has a choice. He always had a choice but this poor baby is so lost. I'm scared that soon it will be too late. If Jinsol doesn't notice that he is not alone anymore, he will lost his family and Saegye.

Yeah, Jinsol has his mother and sister. Saegye doesn't have anyone now.

(Don't hate me, I know that my words are chaotic but this story is my obsession and I really need express my thoughts because it's so complex and I love stories like this.)

Ps I'm so scared that author will make Saegye the one running after Jinsol. But Saegye is not unbreakable, like everybody he has limits. I will be really dissapointed if it goes like this.