Of course not. But I've been deep into bl that nothing faze me anymore. I've seen and read a lot of 'immoral' stories from manga, manhwa, and manhua to JP, KOR, and CN webnovels. It's like a normal thing to read for me now(which obviously is supposed to be bad but heh. Our community doesn't care. We're rotten).
Also my last shred of innocence and my love for slow-burn innocent BL stories is what keeping me read this kind of stories. It's kind of refreshing feeling from the usual.
That's why I feel complicated. I hate them, too. But sometimes I forget about the female lead and the plot so I automatically see BL. So yeah.
I'm also unable to engage myself with the female lead from the start so that's why I'm a bit indifferent with her. Well, I'm usually detached from the drama unless it's a fluffy story.
No hate please. (●'◡'●)

As a fujoshi, my feelings for the yaoi pair is complicated. I should hate them but my instinct!! I can't but I must!! Ugh*coughcough* I MUST NOT(/TДT)/