thank you so much for the update but i don't think i can hurt myself for 2nd time.uwwwuuu it hurt so much after reading the novel. i should listen to not read the manhua since i can see zhishus suffering. the novel kills me. i cried over an hour. i feel numb. i thought last time i was crying when i read the chapter lan zhan was suffering after wei ying's death. he can't protect him and go thru what weiying's likes. so it's the same as Dr. Ai. i feel so sad for Dr. Ai who truly loves zhishu. he keeps checking on zhishu's breath afraid that zhishu will leave him. but in the end zhishu died. god knows how painful reading it. have a long nice sleep zhishu. wait for me. and the last letter from wenxu that i remember was
" dear my beloved wife, I really miss you, every breath I think of you, my heart hurt so much. you have been reluctant to come back home and i feel time move slowly. You used to wait for me, but now, I'll be here waiting for you forever. I feel cruel and unfair of what i did to you. I regret it all the time. i hate myself for not being better to you at first and now i blame myself for never indulging you once. I know it was wrong. now you have gone so far, you haven't even looked back, and you not even given me a chance to atone."
I will learn to be patient and wait for you forever, in the days when you leave, i atoned all my sins in the coldness and pain as the same pain i once made to you, day and night. I've done the wrong things, i wish i could fix it but that things don't work as I wish, and it might be too late to turn back. I do not ask forgiveness, but i'll use my the rest future and life for you. I just want to wait for you.... i don't know if i still have afterlife after the evil things i done, that's why for the rest of my this life, i will always loving you.
*his letter is long and heartbreaking, read the novel for his full epilogue. this is just small part.
Brahh... appreciate the one you love when they were alive, not after they die,.
thank you so much for the update but i don't think i can hurt myself for 2nd time.uwwwuuu
it hurt so much after reading the novel. i should listen to not read the manhua since i can see zhishus suffering. the novel kills me. i cried over an hour. i feel numb. i thought last time i was crying when i read the chapter lan zhan was suffering after wei ying's death. he can't protect him and go thru what weiying's likes. so it's the same as Dr. Ai. i feel so sad for Dr. Ai who truly loves zhishu. he keeps checking on zhishu's breath afraid that zhishu will leave him. but in the end zhishu died. god knows how painful reading it. have a long nice sleep zhishu. wait for me.
and the last letter from wenxu that i remember was
" dear my beloved wife, I really miss you, every breath I think of you, my heart hurt so much. you have been reluctant to come back home and i feel time move slowly. You used to wait for me, but now, I'll be here waiting for you forever. I feel cruel and unfair of what i did to you. I regret it all the time. i hate myself for not being better to you at first and now i blame myself for never indulging you once. I know it was wrong. now you have gone so far, you haven't even looked back, and you not even given me a chance to atone."
I will learn to be patient and wait for you forever, in the days when you leave, i atoned all my sins in the coldness and pain as the same pain i once made to you, day and night. I've done the wrong things, i wish i could fix it but that things don't work as I wish, and it might be too late to turn back. I do not ask forgiveness, but i'll use my the rest future and life for you. I just want to wait for you.... i don't know if i still have afterlife after the evil things i done, that's why for the rest of my this life, i will always loving you.
*his letter is long and heartbreaking, read the novel for his full epilogue. this is just small part.
Brahh... appreciate the one you love when they were alive, not after they die,.