Okay so as i'm reading this i'm currently at chapter 6. Anyway i chose a wrong time to rea...

Sebaciel January 30, 2020 8:56 am

Okay so as i'm reading this i'm currently at chapter 6. Anyway i chose a wrong time to read this because i was literally bawling my eyes out because i want love. Something is wrong with me... I gain romantic interests from animated characters. I was crying because i realised that i had fallen in love with David and sort of Daniel from Camp Camp. David is such a good guy. He's so happy go lucky and cheerful. "I only think about the good things in life" is what he says. He's so precious and sweet that i just fell in love with him. The Camp Camp intro is going through my head as i am typing this. This is the fourth time i have actually liked someone for their personality but my third for an animated character. Sure i may have crushes on anime guys because they're hot but i have never actually fallen in love with one. There's something wrong with me. I need help. I'm pretty sure the reason i fall in love with these characters is because deep down inside me i think that no one will ever love me because i'm ugly, or im too fat, or i'm too mean or something. I fall in love with these characters because all i want is love. I want someone other than my parents or my friends. I want someone that i can solely trust. Someone that will love me forever and has a good personality. I care about looks yes but i care more about personality. I just want someone to make me feel like i'm loved. I have an amazing mom who loves me to death i will admit, but i just want something... more.

Responses
    iselen January 30, 2020 11:12 am

    I think I understand you baby. I don't think it's sth bad to like animated characters, really. But sooner or later you will be more lonely than ever. Thirsty and desperate for love. Everyone wants to be loved, I assure you. As someone who feels similar to you, I will give you a piece of advice. Be patient. It's hard and often frustrating but don't rush things. If you meet someone you like, go for it. Respect yourself and your time, back off if you feel bad. Don't let your desires to swallow you. I know how shitty it feels when you have people around you but you still feel like the only one in the world, so fucking lonely all the time. So go to your friends, have fun and let it come. Take care of yourself, it will be okay <3

    Sebaciel January 30, 2020 11:38 am
    I think I understand you baby. I don't think it's sth bad to like animated characters, really. But sooner or later you will be more lonely than ever. Thirsty and desperate for love. Everyone wants to be loved, ... iselen

    Thank you so much. Im sorry i cant write out a longer thank you reply due to me crying but thank you.

    iselen January 30, 2020 12:24 pm
    Thank you so much. Im sorry i cant write out a longer thank you reply due to me crying but thank you. Sebaciel

    You are welcome! Feel free to write if you want to talk more (๑•ㅂ•)و✧

    Emmi January 30, 2020 3:42 pm

    Don't stress, from what you wrote it sounds like you are still young and have plenty of time left to find someone who will love you as much as you love them. Beauty is subjective and even if there are things about your appearance that you dislike, there will definitely be people out there who are into it. For example, I personally am really into chubby people with big noses. A lot of people see those things as flaws but I find them super adorable. Be confident honey, you'll be okay. And honestly as someone who has stayed in some shit relationships in the past for fear of being alone, being alone is really not so bad. The last year I have been single for the first time since I was 16 (now 27) and I'm happier than I've ever been.

    Sebaciel January 30, 2020 8:45 pm
    Don't stress, from what you wrote it sounds like you are still young and have plenty of time left to find someone who will love you as much as you love them. Beauty is subjective and even if there are things ab... Emmi

    Thank you. I try to be confident about myself but any time i am i always find a way to bring myself down again and i hate it. I dont want to die i just want to look descent