I don't know if anyone's touched on this before but as messed up as this hot take will sound, I really think this is the closest to a relationship that SH has ever had or has experienced in awhile.
Despite everything that has gone wrong in the story between them, Nakyum always ends up telling SH something unguarded and unrestrained that touches him in one way or another.
When SH took advantage of a drunk NK, Nakyum's reactions and confessions to "Sir" really tempered SH's mocking and caddish attitude and he became really tender and pensive.
The night SH forced him in the Pavillion, NK expressed his anger and grief at SH's gall for taking the words and actions that were meant for someone else, bursting SH's bubble of reliving what they had that night. Both NK (understandably) and SH were a mess after that.
NK may hold back at times out of fear but that fear doesn't stop him from chastising, criticizing or calling out bad behavior from SH. And it is like a slap of SH's face every time it happens. SH gets taken aback, may or may not lash out but NK's words always linger after.
The scene when NK pulls SH away when he was in the middle of giving NK a BJ was great. Here is this lowborn, pulling away the nobleman SERVICING HIM, cupping his hands on his face while probably insisting that he should stop because someone's outside and SH is listening.
And before that, when SH discovers that NK is hard, Nakyum tells SH that it is his fault. NK didn't say this to be sexy or to garner SH's interest and SH knows, this making their exchanges charming and natural. Someone uttering confusion and embarrassment out of a sincere response rather than the practiced artifice of performative seduction.
When he was at play with the other noblemen, THEY were very deferential towards SH. Jihwa stopped SH from giving him that type of pleasure because that was Jihwa's job, not SH's. Even among the nobles, these encounters have the feeling of been transactions. They were intentionally detached.
Of course, two of those noblemen got pissy as a result of SH's obvious interest for NK. And though SH listened to them and then lashed out, their words did not linger, or feel him with doubt or hesitation in regards to NK. Their words just help to solidify SH's desires.
Things that others could not get away with. Things that would have permanently removed the nobleman from SH's presence and home, are listened to and considered for NK's sake.
This doesn't mean that SH will do what NK hopes for. Both NK and SH have very different goals. SH will just consider it then make an executive decision. If that decision, happens to coincide with NK's wish, lucky him.
I don't know if anyone's touched on this before but as messed up as this hot take will sound, I really think this is the closest to a relationship that SH has ever had or has experienced in awhile.
Despite everything that has gone wrong in the story between them, Nakyum always ends up telling SH something unguarded and unrestrained that touches him in one way or another.
When SH took advantage of a drunk NK, Nakyum's reactions and confessions to "Sir" really tempered SH's mocking and caddish attitude and he became really tender and pensive.
The night SH forced him in the Pavillion, NK expressed his anger and grief at SH's gall for taking the words and actions that were meant for someone else, bursting SH's bubble of reliving what they had that night. Both NK (understandably) and SH were a mess after that.
NK may hold back at times out of fear but that fear doesn't stop him from chastising, criticizing or calling out bad behavior from SH. And it is like a slap of SH's face every time it happens. SH gets taken aback, may or may not lash out but NK's words always linger after.
The scene when NK pulls SH away when he was in the middle of giving NK a BJ was great. Here is this lowborn, pulling away the nobleman SERVICING HIM, cupping his hands on his face while probably insisting that he should stop because someone's outside and SH is listening.
And before that, when SH discovers that NK is hard, Nakyum tells SH that it is his fault. NK didn't say this to be sexy or to garner SH's interest and SH knows, this making their exchanges charming and natural. Someone uttering confusion and embarrassment out of a sincere response rather than the practiced artifice of performative seduction.
When he was at play with the other noblemen, THEY were very deferential towards SH. Jihwa stopped SH from giving him that type of pleasure because that was Jihwa's job, not SH's. Even among the nobles, these encounters have the feeling of been transactions. They were intentionally detached.
Of course, two of those noblemen got pissy as a result of SH's obvious interest for NK. And though SH listened to them and then lashed out, their words did not linger, or feel him with doubt or hesitation in regards to NK. Their words just help to solidify SH's desires.
Things that others could not get away with. Things that would have permanently removed the nobleman from SH's presence and home, are listened to and considered for NK's sake.
This doesn't mean that SH will do what NK hopes for. Both NK and SH have very different goals. SH will just consider it then make an executive decision. If that decision, happens to coincide with NK's wish, lucky him.