I had to re-read your comment where I had a understanding. And I do, that naoto has a habit of putting everything 1st including his issues, then himself. And has a habit of ....damn loss my train of thought...but he has a habit of "I rather suffer in my own misery or grief than ask for help or hold onto a helping hand". Yes, I agree with those traits he was being selfish or to his "selfless " that he wanted to do this on his own, without someone coming into his issues/problems, even if it was his family. Yes, you can tell that he wasn't going to tell him/his husband anything about meeting his rapist, until shizu said something. But once naoto explained everything, his husband had an understanding of what he wanted to do, but he never agreed that he was not gonna go with him. Now, his husband....damn loss my train of thought....but his husband as partner in a relationship, he respected his sufficient other's choice, but again never agreed to his choice. So.....there's that. But I can relate to him, to naoto. where you see a hand trying to help you, it's been there for you, but you never go out and reach for it. For, Naoto trying to go on his own on meeting his rapist and not asking his partner/his husband to not to interfere even if his husband never said he wouldn't. But that
"Its safe to say that growth is an uncomfortable process and pain is a necessary investment for progress..."
- D'smoke
https://youtu.be/BQ7IAbWKmzg
I hate this chapter. This manga had been amazing until thisss. Naoto is so fuckin selfless to the point that its so selfish. What the heck is with 'rely on me' but can't even do the same shit. Don't even get me started about his trauma. I get he's traumatized but don't even bother asking someone to rely on you and getting all sad just to do the same thing to him, thinking that he would hate you like you don't trust his love, as if the man hasn't proven his love for you. that's just plain hypocracy. Good job there shizu, if you didn't blurt out what happened 9/10 he won't even tell.