The uke has definitely a trauma and he is in a toxic relationship because the man uses his trauma against him. Saying that he is filthy and has always new guys is a clue that Yoon Hyesung tried to escape from that relationship but the other guys gave up before as YH could never really leave the other guy. On the other hand, these exact words also outlines the insecurity of the violent seme. By describing YHS as bad as possible, he is trying to disgust SC and make him give up.
It is interesting that Seung Chan tried to respect YH's boundaries. Furthermore, he never sought YHS for sex... the cooking, worrying that he was too skinny, the bruises on the face. He was always very caring... it was Yoon HS who started seducing SC. So I have the feeling that YHS is not used to kindness without any ulterior motive... When he declared that he was a sex addict, he was actually devaluing himself and in a way try to protect himself. I don't think that the uke can leave the violent seme right away.
However, the fact that YHS went to SC's place and sought comfort shows that he has definitely "enjoyed" the time spent with SC. He knows that SC will help him and comfort him. The scene that was very moving was when SC comforted YHS after the nightmare.
I am really curious about his past and his true relationship with the other guy. Actually, I have the feeling that the loud noises from the sex are actually more a scream for help than anything else. The violent seme seems to be rough during sex as well... this explains why YHS actually didn't want any foreplay in the beginning but SC refused it that way. He paid attention to the uke's feelings.
What caught my attention was how YHS started calling SC by his name during sex... it actually showed that it wasn't just an one-night stand with some random guy. It felt genuine. And the way
Hello there! I was a bit insecure with my recommendation heheh. I hope you liked it! And take this as something to enjoy before Fridays! As always enjoyed your writing.
Yes I am curious. The violent bf don't seem to care if he sleeps with other ppl... But he badmouth hyesung to the guys who likes him. It seems like he is determine to let hyesung knows, I am the only one who will stay by your side because you are filthy.
But I am curious about Seungchan backstory too. Although he seems relatively normal, but there's one sentence where he said, "dating ? Me? Hah..." makes me feel he has some history too.
Why feeling insecure? The story is really good hence I wrote something. I have the impression that Seungchan's problem is related to a coming out. Notice that he never says that he is interested in a man and lets his colleague believe that he has something going on with a woman. However, with the comment about the "dating", I felt that Seungchan couldn't say yes because of YHS's request: only fuck buddies.
As for JH, he is trying to keep YHS by his side by making him feel unlovable and guilty (filthy), whereas at the same time, he badmouthes YHS to Seungchan in order to make Seungchan dump YHS. JH knows that the reason for YHS's research for other guys is linked to his violent behavior. He knows that but keeps justifying his abuse by saying that YHS is sleeping with a lot of guys.
I read the summary and thought this will be some cliche story but it is really good! I am hooked! I usually hate uke with this type of personality, probably because of a writing problem, but here he just seemed so likable, I don't know how to explain it. The author is really smart in crafting characters.