ikr, but thats not what I remembered.
Well it wasn’t intentional probably, the first time she was Athy but Claude killed her (as stated in the novel), the second time she was a modern human and overdosed on sleeping pills it looks like? So probably an accident
But it mentioned something about her being in despair the second time so I think it was suicide
Oh I thought u meant her first life, but yeah in her second life I guess it was suicide? I don’t really remember
So she tried to kill herself in her previous lives???