I understand how you feel, I have felt this way a lot of times in my life, but you know our beliefs shape our reality. If that's what you love to do then you can excell in it, no doupt about that, it's just a matter of you believing in it. "There is nothing you cannot be, do, or have". I know it's hard to believe but why not try to? Anxiety, fear and grief won't do you any good afterall. Maybe you should try letting go, it can be hard but it is possible. Sorry for going on and on! I am in no better place myself actually. But I have realised that the only real obstacle we are all facing is our own limiting beliefs. I would strongly recommend checking out the law of attraction. But even if that's not you piece of cake that's what psycologists say too, if you don't believe you can do it you will never make it. Most people live in fear and regret, I don't want to live that way and I am sure you don't either and frankly we don't need to live that way. Sorry, I hope I didn't made you feel uncomfortable (⊙…⊙ ) I just wanted to say that
I study architecture too and I’m the same - it’s really suffocating and it’s hard to think of anything - I relate bro
This issue is no joke, I still have it but for different reasons. I study architecture, and I can't draw a design, I just can't, I get anxious, I feel that everything I do it's going to be wrong. I panic, feel like the air is leaving me and I want to cry and cover myself at the same time, even my hand shakes sometimes, I'm so afraid of the design going wrong because of something that happened with a teacher that I can't do anything related to design without feeling like that, architecture is something for life, what you design is a place where people are going to intervene, you can't do it wrong or the people that live or visit the place will feel uncomfortable, trapped, among other things. So everytime I do it wrong I wonder "I'm three years away from graduating, is this how I'm going to be? A mediocre architect that can't do anything right? With zero creativity towards creating a building that looks aesthetic enough to be different? I feel like a fucking failure and I want to drop. That teacher created that the anxiousness in me and made worst all my others insecurities regarding my career because I want to give my life to it since I love it, but now I hate it.