Consider yourself hugged very tightly!
(づ￣ ﹏￣)づ You have my respect for getting through all that.
I was in a similar situation a year ago when my grandpa - my best friend and kindred spirit - passes away. I had been afraid of him dying for 15 years already and in his final 5 years we often thought he wouldn't make it through the night. He eventually passed away not too long after I had accepted that I would lose him sooner or later. Had he died a little bit earlier, I would have had a total breakdown. Before that, I considered spending the first three nights by his grave. However, I came to terms with his mortality shortly before his passing, also, he'd have scolded me pretty hard, had he known of my plans. (￣∇￣") I miss him...
Oh my you're so sweet（/TДT)/
Thank you for saying that, I'm glad it's all in the past
I'm so sorry for your grandpa, I get how awful is to lose someone you love┗( T﹏T )┛
I got emotional as soon as I figured that the lovers death was from an illness, specifically cancer..I also lost my grandmother to cancer 4 years ago. She was diagnosed with stage 4 terminal and it was only a matter of time. I was living with her at the time so I could see her health and body deteriorating first hand, and after it all happened, I didn't really confront my feelings about everything till a while later. I started living alone after that and got a cat so i wouldn't feel lonely..I'm fine now, but I'm still not completely over it, as I resented my family for not being with her as much as they should've and leaving me alone :( but I guess we all have to grow up at some point
Sorry if I burdened someone, I felt like opening up about this again, it's not easy talking with people about something like this, especially after all this time has passed..
I love you guys and thanks for listening <3
That is absolutely alright! Your feelings are valuable! I am sorry for your loss, but relieved that you're healing.
It's not always easy to express yourself and that's why I love these platforms, where you can find solace in strangers.
Sending lots of virtual hugs your way~
I understand you completely, it's normal to feel sad when you lose someone and need to express yourself.
I hope you get better by time because it's important to hang on even tho it's hard (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
I'M TOO FUCKING EMOTIONAL NOW AND I NEED TO VENT, so i you don't want me talking just scroooll down :D
My heart was totally shattered when they started to talk about Inwoo. My grandmother died from cancer last year and she was the most precious person in my life, I couldn't feel the truth in others saying that they loved me besides her. Not even my parents. And she got diagnosed with cancer. Years went by and our lives went on, we cooked together, I spent my holidays with her, I helped her with carrying heavy stuff cuz she couldn't use too much strength. Last year she had to be hospitalized, and stayed unconscious for a month. Then my mother soon came with the notice that she had died. I was really torn apart, but my mother was too and I couldn't leave her like that. So I buried my feelings and supported her. I felt obligated to help her in the situation she was. I had breakdowns constantly insisting that I should be a support for my mother. I considered commiting suicide for almost three months. Fortunately I could get out of that situation fast enough to keep on my life. But I was really unwell at that time.
When they started talking about the cancer I immediately remembered this and started crying. Running over all that happened to my grandma and all that she had been through, and how she complained about the wounds on her hands etc.
This really got me thinking and I don't regret reading but it made me very emotional '3'
I'm sorry if I wasted your time, I just wanted to say this :D