Raws

Raws
https://tkor.lol/%EB%8C%80%EB%A6%AC%ED%99%94%EA%B0%80

Here’s the rest of the raws lol
https://m.manhuagui.com/comic/19778/

I read the Chinese raws and I think it's finished (ch. 70). The seme doesn't exactly having affairs with several women--at least not in a sexual way. He wasn't able to sleep with other women after sleeping with the uke the second time (when he was conscious, not drugged, and knew what was going on). Actually, he pretty much sleeps with only the uke everyday after that second time. The seme's family was framed and sentenced to death by hanging in front of his eyes when he was 8 years old, so getting revenge for his father has been his only reason to live. His family were lower nobles who were really good people and lived righteous lives. After his family was destroyed, he lost everything and felt that his hatred was all he had left (hatred and thirst for revenge became his everything/world). He was raised by his aunt/grandma (?) from his father's side of the family (the head maid in his house now), but because she was afraid he was so young and would be destroyed by his emotions, she taught him over and over that emotions were dangerous and unnecessary (get in the way of judgement etc.) and to not feel them. So he ended up living his whole life without being able to be genuine with anyone. He split people into those he could use and those he couldn't and gave those he could use whatever they wanted (e.g., money, "love"). He only has one friend in his life, but even then, he isn't able to be fully honest with him.

After getting to know the uke, he finds the uke difficult to understand and amazing because despite the horrible experiences the uke had, the uke could still paint such beautiful paintings (reflecting that the uke is still able to see the beauty in the world, while he could only see dirt and corruption). After admitting his feelings to himself (pretty quickly, around ch. 27?), he doesn't sleep with women anymore, although he continues to flirt with noble women to get information and connections from them for his revenge. The latest woman in chapter 40s is the 3rd princess of the monarch. As she falls in love with him at first sight, he proposes to marry her in order to gain a "noble" title and further his plans for revenge. The whole time, he admits to himself and to two others (his best/only friend and the uke's apprentice) that he loves the uke. But he also realizes the uke and him are two different types of people and he could never be like the uke who basically forgave the father of the Bardi family for using his artistic skills, and abusing and raping him. The reason he wasn't able the bring himself to utter the word "love" to the uke (although he could easily lie about love to others before) is because he knows he's not a good person, doesn't think of himself as worthy of happiness, and can't/doesn't know how to "love" the way that the uke paints (which is beautiful, dreamlike, idealistic).

The uke does leave after (servants in the house kidnap him and try to get rid of him, but he gets himself out from being sold off and chooses not to return), and the seme goes through a hard time in search of him. In the end, the seme gives up everything to be with the uke. It's all very sweet, but I kinda wish there was an epilogue or something T_T

Thanks for the link! (⌒▽⌒)

Wow thank you so much for that, that was great!

I was about to drop this when I read a spoiler about the seme being an asshole but thank goodness he really isn't thanks to you I knew it. Your spoiler is so detailed. (●'◡'●)ﾉ

He doesn't exactly want to marry that women. It's basically that women has a good social status which can give him power for taking his revenge.

Tbh the seme smashed( yh he literally made it into a paste) the dick of some bastard ( I won't disclose it) who raped Ian.

You should read carefully before assuming stuff and putting it online... other readers might get the wrong information.

And yes I read the raw, seme never sleep with any one else after he did with uke.

Yup, even when that women came to his house he was fooling around with the uke. It was good to see. But many ppl r saying they r dropping the manga because of anything others say

Yup! I was also about to drop this manhwa because of such wrong information that makes this manhwa looks so bad at all. But thank goodness I came across a comment that says a very detailed and right info about this manhwa.

yw!

np! I'm glad you didn't drop the this ^^

Yup. I have seen many ppl in the comment section say that seme is this seme is that. I mean is love a candy that since someone loves u, u r bound to love them. It takes time. Yh seme might be selfish but who isn't to strangers, but when he loves him, he does everything for the guy. When he realizes he can't be with anyone except him he returns to find him and even fainted after crying. Lol. The guy won't replace u for his lifelong purpose just because of some freakish thing. We can't expect him to sacrifice anything if he ain't deep in love. Haha

I actually felt the same when I read the raws, like I know he wants to take revenge and all that but man, he's taking advantage of the uke like a lot. Sure he gives the uke everything he needs or whatever but still, he's basically draining the uke of whatever happiness he have. Just because he wants to attain something, and yeah the seme is an actual motherfucker when he asked for the recent lady for marriage. I dunno, I just hope Henry can do some shit to help the Uke or maybe Nicholas .

I came back to redeem myself . Ive read the rest of the chapters and Id say, the seme sure did 180 there, he thrown everything away for the uke, like his years worth of plans to rise up, and his desperation to find him man, it shows how deeply he is inlove with him, I was actually worried in the last chapter when it shows like he was about to get married to the lady but damn those guns just went bam! So yeah, the seme yeeted out of there when the "revolution" happened (i think)

Yh it's good they got together in the end

It was clear that he wanted to take revenge and use that woman for that. (I even said "I dont care if it was for revenge" so it was obvious that he was fake dating) But I still couldnt stand it, Idk maybe for me if I were the uke, I would let him do his thing first before having a relationship with me, or as a seme, Id do my stuff first. Actually why would he date that woman if he has lots of money? It was obvious it was for something else. Also, before that lady he was about to marry, there were other minor women first who werent given importance at all, some sort of previews. And if u see the raws, he did continuously slept with the uke while "fake dating" the woman. And I didnt say he had sex with women tho. Dont get me wrong, the ending is perfect just that some things were wrong.

Scratch revenge and replace it with "climbing up the social ladder". The point is, when I wrote the topic, it was implied that the seme was using that girl for something else. The uke prolly didnt know (or knows) but ofc hes still hurt and the seme was prolly hurt too. And so why didnt they let things cool off first instead of deepening their scars by f*cking with misunderstanding (or being conflicted)? That's what I was saying when I was pissed off when they were doing continuously. The author meant it to be this was so I have no say on that, but I was just ranting based on what I feel.

And I apologize for making ppl drop it because of the topic. What I said was not untrue, its just that, I couldnt accept what the seme did, so I wrote it on a negative perspective. Anyhow, I (and the other person) provided the raws. You can read them ad double check. Thanks.