I feel kind of conflicted reading love or hate.. I love both seme and their insecurities ...

I feel kind of conflicted reading love or hate..

I love both seme and their insecurities and imperfections.. i love how they love haesoo so much but their way of showing love is in a very toxic way.. i love how haesoo is in torn between the two seme..

i know how toxic both relationship for both parties, but i can't just pinpoint which should be or shouldn't be together.. I think I'll feel better if haesoo doesn't end up with both of them..

i feel very sad, hurt and pity for jowoon, and i feel a little enmity for taekyung, but i cant just fully hate them..

Jowoon was in a situation where whatever he does it will still end up both of them hurting. He loves Haesoo so much, and Haesoo loves him so much too, they both know they are wrong, they both know they will hurt each other, but neither have the courage to let go of the other.. They both decided that as long as they keep their relationship vague they think at least in the end they have each other, no matter how painful or wrong it feels they just want to keep each other..

But we all know that wont happen and they both know it, in the end because of their selfish love for each other they hurt the person they love the most and end up having to give up and cut the thin thread that keeps them together..

Taekyung on the other hand, for the first time diverts from his nonchalant personality when he meets Haesoo, I think his barren life void of emotions suddenly felt an enormous emotions when he is with Haesoo.. He realized that he is capable of these emotions aside from feeling them behind his camera.. and he felt elated for the first time, and doesnt want to let go of that unfamiliar yet warm emotions.. That being said, as someone new to these he doesn't know how to handle them so he resorts to underhanded methods to confirm his and Haesoo's feelings..

Haesoo is the most emotionally unstable from the 3 of them.. I think the reason why he cant decide which/what is because he doesn't want to end up with nothing.. he avoids conflicts and he ends them before he can confront them.. what he did to Jowoon, at first I thought he made up his mind, but then when he was together with Taekyung he still feel conflicted, then when he asked Taekyung to give him time to think, that's when a thought came to mind.. he's trying to run away again.. he gives this upfront image but he is very conflicted inside.. he wasn't sure of what he truly wants.. who does he want? Why him, why not him.. if i do this, then the other will be this, but if i distance myself i can save myself from these painful push and pull.. He is trying his best to save both and himself, he is trying his best to correct the wrong because thats what he should do, but is that what he truly wants? If he will right the wrong will he be happy and content? I think he is trying to fill in the void left when he ends everything with Jowoon.. but he doesn't want to hurt Taekyung, because he knew he is using him whether he likes it or not, he can't just stop himself from using him.. so wanted to stop, but like i said he is conflicted, this is what he wants and needs to do but he does the opposite, because he doesn't want to end up with nothing..

After reading until the latest chapters i feel conflicted too.. I Want Jowoon and Haesoo but it can't be no matter what because its wrong.. I want Haesoo and Taehyung but I think none of them deserves each other.. I think they just keep using another.. and my heart really aches for Jowoon and Haesoo.. if only they weren't brothers.. that's why i have come up with a conclusion that it's better if non of the two semes end up with Haesoo.. they need therapy and they need to move on..

sometimes giving up is the best answer..

This is just my opinion.. we all have one and different from each other.. please respect this post..