the older brother

Agreed. If I was the kid. I will surely 100% will be traumatized if people come nearing me. I will feel like I'm not worthy to exist(I know it's a bit of over but, come on he's still a kid)

he was barely a kid himself , think about it -.- he lashed out. u say alot of stuff when u angry/stressed u dont mean

yea he was sort of young, but in the manga, the apology never came. think about it, i don't think the older brother ever apologized to him in person-face to face?

well i dont want to defend him but there are people that are arkward with this things. feeling sorry but not being able to apologize. but i wished he would have been a little gentler to let him understand that he didnt mean it

Yeah, but the point is that he never apologized. I mean, he KNEW what he did was wrong, that's why he complained about it to Takatsuki, but to not apologize to the wrong party and let it fester like it wasn't important? That was wrong.

And in the end, all he did was run away while still on such bad terms so... ╮(￣▽￣)╭

my brother did some horrible things to me, physically and verbally. Like slap me in the face 'hard' if I didn't accompany him playing play station, forcing me to eat grass straight from the lawn, telling me that I was adopted when I was a kid (and heck I cried to my mother straight away) and such, he did never apologize and I understand because he's awkward, and ever since our relationship did get awkward, y'know even when we're under the same roof we've never really talk to each other. But don't get me wrong we're on really good terms despite the awkwardness. I don't resent him because I understand him. My brother got his reasons and though it got to do with my father being such a jerk, beating, and raging every single day (don't get me wrong again I love my dad very much, and he's trying so hard to change himself which is why I'm proud of him, and my mother is an amazing mother because she's a strong woman that can tame my dad lol). I know that my brother regret the things he did, and even for all the shitty things he did to me he's still my brother and I support him. So I understand the brother's feelings in this manga quite alright. not that I'm righting his wrong, it's just I understand. And I'm writing a diary here lol (and share a little of my journey if that's alright with ya folks :D )

yeah, i never went through anything like that, but I feel like I can relate to your brother anyway, cause I think similarly(but maybe not - i don't want to be presumptuous.)

if i do something bad that I know I should apologize for, often times i feel so guilty and shameful about it that I wish it had never happened - to the point that I ignore the topic completely if I can, and may never end up apologizing, but i never forget it either.

i just hope the person wasn't hurt as badly as i might imagine (cause sometimes that's happened too, and i apologize when they weren't hurt at all, and it's awkward)

also, I used to be really sensitive as a kid (and i guess i still am), but it was embarrassing to be so emotionally invested in things that other people didn't seem to take seriously, so i tried my best to grow out of it

basically, revealing any sensitive emotions makes me feel vulnerable; like "casting your pearls before swine" kind of thing; like someone's going to slap the chocolate-chip cookie out of your hand if you ever bring it out to try to eat it.

and if you were going to give them that cookie as a gift, it feels ten-times worse

lol! now I'M writing an online journal!

Exactly my thoughts!! There are some things you shouldn't say to another human being, even more so if s/he is a child, no matter how fu**ed up your situation is!! What i really hate about his older brother is not about apologizing part. But that, he never even bothered to TRY to mend their relationship. Just asking your friend to take care of your brother & sending money is not everything. From other people's statements here i do understand that they might have undergone similar situations but at least their relatives tried. But in this manga i don't see that happening.