I'm conflicted...

I'm okay with Asahi crossdressing. The problem I have with it is that he feels like he HAS to look that way in public. It's not really clear about how he wants to express himself. Obviously, he likes fashion and makeup (enough to involve it into his work and personal life). But I feel kind of uncomfortable when I see him more dressed as Miu than Asahi. He definitely identifies with masculinity and femininity; I want to be clear that he has not identified as being trans. This is completely fine! However, my problem is that Asahi is... kinda lost behind the facade of Miu. I want to see Asahi interact with Yugo. I don't want to see Miu all the time because Miu reminds me that Asahi feels like he can't win against girls and that he HAS TO fit into the hetero norms. I love that Asahi is comfortable and enjoys playing with gender and fashion; however, I want to see him comfortable and as himself. Asahi is who Yugo loves, not Miu (although, Yugo likes Miu because Miu is Asahi). This is a convoluted rant but I feel really conflicted and frustrated because I came here to see a lovey dovey gay couple but I'm now dealing with a horny lady and a really insecure cinnamon roll who feels like he's not enough! Just let me relish in my boys!