I see it more as conflicting emotions the mc is going through. The old world was where he was raised and he has lots of good people and memories of it while the new world is where his lover is along with one heck of an adventure with many exciting happiness. It’s hard to make a choice where you can only choose one or the other. Anyways, I’m sure the future chapters are going to get better and even more....idk BETTER!!!
tbh, i liked the main character the whole time this story took place UNTILLLLLL HE PULLED THAT LEAVING STUNT. but you're right, of course. it's hard making those kinds of choices. i hope he goes back.
caius deserves better, and the MC is pretty selfish for leaving