About Suu's character

I think it's not so much that Suu felt something for Prince and therefore stopped. I think he just doesn't want to be "the bad guy" anymore. His entire life he was acting selfishly but at the same time he was forced to obey the higher-ups. Suu is very freedom-loving person, and this love comes from all the restrictions the life had imposed on him. The more he is restrained, the more his desire for freedom grows, he wishes to act more selfishly but can't. Can't if he wants to survive and obtain his desired true freedom in the future, that is. I believe, Suu always feels conflicted inside but doesn't allow himself to be conscious of it, because he has to be stern and confident in his path in order to succeed and deceive those who are above him. Because of that, he had to do many things he wouldn't approve otherwise. He made himself believe that there's nothing wrong in achieving your goal, whatever method you choose - it's okay if you'll succeed in the end. But he didn't want that kind of life. He never wanted it. He wished to be free from it. And he had to restrain himself once again to make his wish come true. Always, he had to struggle with his feelings.
Now, when he lost everything, he still can't even believe it. Did you notice how fast last scenes pass?? And we hardly hear Suu reacting to his surroundings. It's like he's out of the loop and doesn't really care what's going around him anymore. Of course, he has conflicted feelings towards the Prince. But what I feel, in that moment, when he knocked down the cup, he FOR THE FIRST TIME tried to obtain that TRUE FREEDOM he wanted so badly, EXPRESS HIMSELF. He did it for the Prince, but mostly, he did it for his own sake. We should be so proud for him right now!! т-т SUU'S CHARACHTER IS SO COMPLICATED MY GOD, I can't express enough how much I love it!!