Ok, For all you Kurose Haters, here was my reply to someone before...

No way, dude! He totally needs to feel like what he's feeling inside sexually is ok and it seems to me that he really needs that push from a dominant person to do it. The bathroom scene is a perfect case in point. He feels like his sexuality is 'dirty' and by breaking down in the 'dirty' public toilet and fantasizing Kurose giving him what he needs shows how desperate his psyche is to accept that sex isn't 'disgusting'. Kurose pegged him from the beginning and that's why he let him leave the last step open.

I also think Kurose is being much, much gentler than the usual BL seme. I've read plenty of BL where the seme would have tied him up and had his way with him by the third chapter. Kurose is constantly pushing him then backing off and when Shirotani runs away, Kurose lets him. Shirotani is the one who keeps coming back for more. He wants the D so bad and Kurose knows it!

Kurose is an ideal for Shirotani, a life model if you will, for Shirotani to feed off of his example. When Kurose, a person who Shirotani admires, says he wants to defile him, e.g. make him dirty, it's subconsciously instilling the idea that being sexually 'dirty' is something natural to feel. Or rather, sexual feelings are natural and not 'dirty' in the sense that it is 'disgusting', but an aspect of being sexual.

Do you feel dirty reading BL? What if you did in the sense that it was a disgusting thing no one should ever read? Now what if someone you became close to said it was perfectly ok for you to love BL, "come on, try it.", "I wanna read BL with you", "I wanna corrupt your mind until you're as dirty as I am." Then, you grappled with yourself until you decided in your own mind that reading gay, smutty comics was just fine and you weren't going to die from disgust from liking that. Would you feel that being 'dirty' was ok?

-I hella feel dirty for reading BL AND I LOVE IT!!!!