I want something new

I think the parts where FL was kind of paranoid and imagined herself killing the future emperor was the best. I feel like I have read way too much stuff with “oh even if he killed my family in my past life he wasn’t actually bad bc he grew up this way or that way and I can change him or maybe I already changed him without realizing!” I liked the part where the FL said “I wish u didn’t show me this human side. I would have been happier resenting u forever” or something like that. I want to read something more sinister but not like “I will get revenge for my family!” but more like “I know you’re still just a child now but my hatred burns far deeper than my morals” oh also I think it would have been so interesting if like the FL killed the emperor and the whole thing but then she woke up at the beginning kind of like re:zero but instead of her dying the emperor dies and AND at one point we see the emperor’s point of view but not his old version but just his child version being killed by the FL and of course he is panicked bc he just dreamt himself dying and he isn’t sure if it was a dream or not so he becomes suspicious of the girl like he is right now but our girl is a great actor and bam the cycle again till she realizes revenge isn’t the answer and so on and all this time he is having flashbacks to his older self like sees he killed the girl’s family and stuff. I feel like we would get to know the emperor more than him just being unreasonably cruel and cold like yeah sure his life is bad but that still doesn’t explain much. It’s more like he was just neglected but anyway yeah what do i guys think?