I NEED HELP CRYING LMAO

Hey y'all, I've been obsessed with heartbreaking, angsty ass, unrequited (but eventually requited) (aka. "Even though he doesn't love me thats ok, as long as I'm by his side (but eventually gets too heartbreaking)") books like BJ ALEX or therapy game. Preferably smt smutty with an actual storyline, no shounen ai. Could be yaoi or that straight shit too hehe. BUT PLZ COMMENT YOUR RECOMMENDATIONS. I WANNA CRY LMAO