
I feel your exact sentiment. It makes me so sad I can barely stand it. I wanted this to end with Eren being the hero, the savior, the one who made it all worth it. Instead, all his old friends are there-- trying to kill him. It hurts so much. I hate Isayama for it. I know this wasnt some lighthearted anime but the pain that he has put Eren through...
Having to die to save the world is a big burden. A part of me actually wanted Eren to succeed in trampling so that he doesn't have to die and can just live. I have a feeling he'd kill himself anyways if he succeeded though. Sigh. There's no happy ending for him. Not here.
I cried so much at chapter 133, I don't want Eren to be dead, Eren took so much burden that he's even willing to sacrifice his self for the freedom of those who's special for him, he wants to keep moving forward and fight for those eldian who died in front of him, he's even willing to fulfill Ymir's will, so that the hatred will come to an end, but still even if those are only option, I want Eren to stopped because I think Marley's finally realized their faults, stopping Eren without killing him will be the best ending but it looks impossible...
I just want Eren to lived at peace and have a happy life in his 4 years lifespan.
I want Eren to be the symbol of peace and freedom of all humanity, I want them to praise Eren and not to resent him at the history, because we all knew that Eren became like that because of hate, revenge, fear, and eager to achieve the freedom of all eldian even without him.
But because of what he did, I don't know if he'll be acknowledge as a devil who gives terror of all humans or a symbol of hope and freedom for all eldian, thinking of it gives me heartache, for everything that Eren did for the sake of eldian and his comrades will might be come to an end as a symbol and result of hatred between Marley and Eldia