Comrade Mommy's Topics (204)

I can def get the gist and I'm happy to have it. I'll totally reread the new translations but I'm happy to have what you put out bc it's fast and I can at least follow the story. I really do appreciate it greatly

This is really well done. It's easy to understand and it and even the small mistakes in syntax aren't jarring. I've read manga by actual scantalation groups that are hard to get into bc the mistakes keep taking you out of the story. I've not had that problem here. The translation is really as easy to read as many multi staffed groups. The most important thing is the translator is able to translate the gist of the story more then perfectly sticking to a literal translation. I've noticed the translator has made note of changing something so it made better sense and that's exactly what I hope for. Thanks again.

Tickling my daughters back to get her to finally go sleep, I'm trying not to make to much noise crying

The eng translation of the title is what bothers me. It's so awkward. I don't read Japanese but using a translation site it's pretty easy to see that the most likely def is "first love". Hatsu has a lot of diff results but the one that fits the context of "ai" love/desire is first. Also there was no make anywhere. I could be wrong as I'm not a native speaker of Japanese nor did I learn it but in context it makes a lot more sense. I'm wondering if anyone does know how to read this and what they would translate it to. Even if it's literally first make love when translated to English-which was what I thought at first before looking up the translation- there's an art to taking the actual meaning and translating that into English bc often times the literal translation misses tiny nuances that are literally lost in translation

I developed OCD in fith grade and bc I didn't know what it was I thought it was punishment from God for being bad. Later I thought it was some form of insanity. But something I recently found out was that if you have the tendency towards OCD and then take a drug like Ritalin (really any of the amphetamine type drug used to treat ADD & ADHD) it can trigger OCD. Kind of like how drugs like LSD can trigger those genetically predisposed towards having schizophrenia into psychosis. I had been on Dexedrine (think hard core Ritalin or "mothers little helper" from the 50's & 60's) and Ritalin since partway through fourth grade. I was also like Shirotani San in that I had experienced trauma related to something sexual along with a few other traumatic experiences, like seeing my dad beat my step mom and my dad try to kidnap me when my mom wouldn't let me go with him bc he'd been drinking. I spent many years tortured by my fears and anxiety. I was almost always scared. I'd manage to distract myself with books or playing but then with a feeling like my heart was dropping into my stomach the memories would come back. I also had memory black outs which I'm grateful for but nonetheless by fith grade I was ripe for something to break. Also when you wash your hands to much the wounds are worse on your knuckles and the back of your hands. I've found that behavior modification is the only real way to beat it. So when Kurose pushes Shirotani San it's not just him doing it for his own S desires but bc making a mysophobic person do the thing they're scared of and then seeing nothing bad happen helps train the brain. Like I used to have to wash my hands all the time but making me not wash them and riding out the anxiety and then seeing nothing bad happen. The first time I had to wash my hands bc of OCD was bc I suddenly had this fear of being burnt like Freddie Kruger and only by washing my hands would I feel like it wouldn't happen. If someone had stopped me and I rode it out maybe I could have avoided all those years of hand washing. Because the anxiety is so intense it feels impossible not to do the thing your OCD is making you feel like you have to do. Like turning the light switch on and off. Or touching your right hip to the doorway bc your left hip touched it then having to touch your left hip again bc you touched your right hip in a different place and then the right hip again and so on and so on. That's how OCD can end up taking up multiple hours of your day. But if you can find a way to stop yourself and ride out the anxiety it will dissipate after several minutes. I ended up doing a strange version of behavioral modification in my teens that got my OCD down quite a bit. I used my OCD to cure my OCD. I take one fear to battle another. So if I couldn't stop getting out of my friends car bc I kept having to touch my feet to the ground in a certain way I'd have my friends tell me that I had to stop or something bad would happen or tell me to stop or I'd grow a penis (an actual fear I had since seeing the beginning of a movie where a girl wished to be a boy and woke with a penis). Now my OCD is largely in remission. Mostly I have a fixation on numbers and avoiding certain numbers. Namely 3, 13 or anything starting in a three. I love 2,7,9,11, 27, 29. 9 & 27 are my favorite bc 9 is just good and 27 is made up of 2 & 7 and when added together they make 9. So if I'm supposed to do something for 30 secs I do 27 or 29. It's really a relief to not have OCD taking up all my time.

Reminded me of something I had forgotten and wish I hadn't remembered. FYI having a bf who had more experience with porn then actual girlfriends has a real downside. Upside is how excited they get and the breathless declarations of love after letting them do stupid porn shit to you. Downside them spitting on your vagina and an obsession with fisting. I'm not into having my vagina be a gaping maw and his youd think considering that his penis was only slightly above avarage in length and girth that he'd want to keep it a close fit. I think gay dudes have it better the het chicks bc they get what turns their guy on in a way most women can only guess at. Mentally I'm a total dyke but unfortunately physically I'm really into dick.

-innocent yet bad ass uke. Back when I read het romance nothing was better then finding a female heroine who could cut an enemy to shreds. The only het romance I can still actually stand is the angels blood trilogy. If it was yaoi it would be my holy grail.

That literally had me snickering and busting out in giggles every time I thought about it. I was peeing and thought about it and it made me pee harder which made me snicker harder. In recent years my ability to laugh has decreased which is depressing bc I used to laugh all the time. But occasionally something tickles my funny and I'm done. I found some crack novels on amazon about gay billionaire dinosaurs forcing hot studs gay (in a delightfully gay parody of the 50 shades genre of retarded smut) and I laughed so hard that for the first time in my life I started crying from laughing. I scared the dog and my kid. When my niece and kid asked what was so funny I tried to explain but only laughed/ cried harder till tears were pouring down my face. I could only show them the cover art since I wasn't about to read the resigned quote from one young stud about to be buggered by a bunch of lawyer velociraptors that he guessed "he was fucking some dinosaurs tonight" to two preteens. Although bad mommy I am I was tempted bc it was awesome. Also they were to young to understand how hilarious a book about the tragic love story of a billionaire triceratops cabaret dancer. I now have fighting monkeys naked to add to my list of things that make me laugh now that very little makes me laugh. Thank god for yaoi and gay dinosaurs -and Dave Chappelle

Not creepy guy in the street rape or fast slob on the train rape; but a sexy perfect representation of the maker species being so overwhelmed by lust for hours heroine/uke that he pushes past his/her resistance in order to give them what they deep down really want. I think that's why it's so prevalent in Japanese manga. This translators note ads to what I've always thought. In some Asian countries women and supposed to be free with they're sexuality. That's why in shoujo and yaoi they say no no when they mean yes yes. Modest women aren't allowed to enjoy sex. Think about the culture. A teen idol got caught having a boyfriend-not having sex just having a boyfriend. She had to shave her head as an apology to not get kicked out of her idol group. Women are sexual creatures but the culture has taught them that it's best toi act on those desires. So a yaoi take trope allows them to fulfill those normal desires without the guilt. Yaoi is smoother tactic. The uke is obviously a representation of the female in many yaoi and it allows the female to vicariously enjoy sexual feelings in a way one more step removed from herself. I think there's alt more nuanced reasons for western audiences to enjoy yaoi but I've often wondered how many of those who enjoy the rape trope are there ones who are repressed in some way or like myself have had some level of abuse that twisted their feelings air there own sexuality. I know fit myself that I was sexualized at a very young age but it went hand in hand with feelings of guilt and shame. Self loathing, fear and this sick feeling I was bad. It ultimately resulted in severe stomach pains when stressed and even worse OCD that ultimately became debilitating. Eventually I became extremly sexually promiscuous even though sex never resulted in orgasam for me. It was compulsive. But then it became gross. Actual sex became something ridiculous. It's always loved m/m stories but finding yaoi hit that sweet spot. I loved the yaoi tropes and am angsty uke? My fav stories are the innocent uke or at least innocent at heart even if his body was no longer innocent registered but a larger older urban seme who posted past his resentment to give him what his body destress even if his mind is against it. It's actually a prevalent theme in women's erotic fiction. It's not that women want to be dominated or raped, it's just a plot device that allows women (and some men) to enjoy the story. It's a subconscious thing but it's wrapped up in the ground of guilt for feeling sexual. It's not that there people who write orf it condone rape. Ive been raped and would never wish that on anyone. I'm a second gen feminist raised but a lesbian who is as shit add liberal as you can get on there idea of consent. But this is fantasy separated from the real world where I believe strongly in the idea of equality and consent. If any of these story lines happened irl to anyone I knew if encourage them to go to the police and file rape charges. But this isn't reality. Yaoi rape liver stories with a happy ending livesin the world of unicorns and

I love a story where the uke had a vagina or vagina like orifice. I just wish that when the seme discovered mimisaka was intersex had been included as well as their first sexual encounter. I'm sure it works have been deliciously angsty and filled with non con goodness