Overall, I've enjoyed reading this, but CAN YU IJIN PLEASE GET A BREAK??? HE JUST WANTS TO LIVE A NORMAL LIFE !!!
Once something finishes, another one starts and I swear this guys never fully heals from his previous fights either.
Like, can we have some more chapters with him, his family and his friends. Like the only time we really saw his family with him was when they were eating or he was walking with dayun (can't remember if it was dayun or dahyun or dayeon), give us a beach episode or something.
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WTF??? IS THIS BITCH TALKING ABOUT???? "Kael still loves me" I was stunned speechless and I just let out a villain cackle, cause that girl is straight up talking out of her ass, in what world were those eyes of Kael looking at you??? Wake up!!!
I really love manga and I love how the children aren't all the same. I've seen children like Minato a lot, one of the reason children are like is probably because they want attention. I think seeing the consequences of his own actions is something he can take and learn from.
I'm not a middle child but rather the oldest and I was always angry as a child. Then I'd see my parents struggling with and all the adult responsibilities you could take, I felt guilty and decided I should be more understanding and not get angry as much.
Honestly, from what I see the way Naoto and Hazuki raising the children, there's not much I could say other than they're doing really well. Some parents, well my parents as well, won't even take any sort of accountability for any mistake their children makes. For example, if my younger sibling did what Minato did and got my mum/dad hurt, I'd be severely scolded and worse would have gotten hit several times with curse words thrown at me every second. The way Hazuki handled the situation was honestly really good, although he shouted he still felt guilty.
Not once have I ever seen or felt a single parent around me ever feel guilty for shouting at their child.
[The next part is just me yapping]
[Trigger warning: su*cide, stabbing]
I asked my mum about her or my dad or my grandparents hitting me as a child. She said she did it because she loved me and immediately I was like "how does that mean you love me? I've never felt like you loved me." She was shocked and I was shocked because she truly belived that, that love of hers was conveyed to me properly like that. On top of that, before she said that part, she said she doesn't remember ever hitting me, at first I was like am I being gaslit? Then are these memories of mine fake? I was hit with a hanger, a belt, slippers and my grandparents had this medium sized 1inch thick wooden plank. I even remember my mum stabbing my brother on the leg with a fork and I think he still has marks from that.
The first time she realised that I was struggling and was mentally and emotionally tired was when I was 16/17, after she had a fight with my dad (they had been fighting a lot for quite a while before that), at that point I had such a hard time trying to keep them from fighting. As the oldest sibling it felt like I was supposed to be responsible for my siblings (my brother is a year younger so not so much him but my younger sisters are at least 10 years younger), and I didn't want them fighting in front of them. I tried to talk to my mum about it and she didn't care, and that when all the feelings I had bottled up for so long just burst out. I started crying uncontrollably and I told her I've been wanting to kill myself for so long and had attempted before. She hugged me and said she didn't know I felt like that, but she's never asked how I was doing, EVER.
To be honest, I don't think I'll ever heal properly but I think that's ok, the only downside is that I'll probably never be able to trust anyone properly anymore. Love is also something I don't think I'll be able to do, who knows though maybe I'll find someone one day.
Sorry for writing a lot, I've never been vulnerable enough to anyone to say this and I guess I just needed somewhere to put it and decided to do it. Thank you for reading it <3.
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Thank you :) <3
Hi, just wanted to let you know that I completely understand you.
My mum denies ever being even a tiny bit harsh towards me (I'm also the eldest child), when she'd come at me for every inconvenience and trouble my younger siblings caused. I feel like that's how it is for many parents, they simple don't "remember". They say the most painful things to you and when you approach them about it, they won't remember having ever said anything. We'll spend all our lives hearing those cruel words echo in our heads, but for them its nothing at all.
And because I have no proper inspiration to draw from on how to be a good mother/parent, I fear I can never become one. I don't trust myself, yknow?
I'm sorry you had to go through all that bs. I wish for you to be okay, one day
i hope you’re doing better now :(
can’t imagine what it feels like when someone treats you so terribly and it doesn’t even weigh on their conscience, while you have to live with the trauma of it all.
but itself a testament to your strength and character that you came out of it all still an empathetic person (although you shouldn’t have to), and i hope you find peace and happiness :)
if you really want kids, i highly suggest doing targeted therapy as well as classes for it, i’m sure you’ll do well <3
I totally agree and also wanna give you lots of hugs because what you lived through is absolutely not okay.
I was a bad child and my parents would often scold me and hit me, but not as bad as your mom.
Enough however that I still distinctly remember saying as a child I liked my mom more because she would only slap me on the cheek while my dad would do it on my butt which I truly hated because it hurt a lot and I also felt it was humiliating even as a child. But for me it always stayed in the realm of what’s « normal » (even tho I still remember it bitterly)
However my dad kept on hitting me even while I was more grown up as a way of discipline, only stopped when I punched him back. Only time he actually apologized to me and since then he never touched me. I however remember this day deeply because it was extremely violent. It happened right in front of my mom. She doesn’t remember somehow.
Even now, sometimes she says hurtful thing and then just forget about it.
Parents have a very selective memory ╮(￣▽￣)╭
Anyway TL:TR I really feel for you.
I understand the scars, although probably not as deeply. Personally I still have some problems due to the issues in my family (more things that just the hitting part), but I did manage to heal a bit and also I think growing a bit closer with my parents with some try at understanding and forgiving. Well, for my dad it’s complicated, but with my mom we did manage to talk.
Without talking about having a better relationship with your family because it’s your rights not to, or sometimes it’s just not possible, I do hope you will be able to heal some with the years.
Thank you for your kind comment and I hope things will get/are better for you. I also somewhat feel the same about having kids, I actually like children and right now I'm doing psychology in hopes of getting into a job where I'll be around children. For now, I'm aiming to go into education for children who have autism because of my sister who has autism.
I love children, but when thinking about having kids, I just don't know if I'd be a good mum. I guess I could be since I have experience with my siblings, I was practically a second mother to them in a way. But I'm also afraid I'd turn out the same way as my mum.
Another thing is, I don't want to give birth, anyone else have the same fear?? I see people talking about giving birth or being pregnant all the time on Instagram and how painful it is for them. If I have the courage to want kids one day I'd probably try and adopt instead.
I'm so happy for you, that you managed to help your parents realise their wrongs and talk it out with them; and thank you for your kind words. I hope I'll heal through out the years too and hopefully have a proper talk with both my parents and all my siblings present one day.
OMG!!!! HE FOR SURE IS GONNA USE THAT WISH TICKET TO ASK HER TO MARRY HIM!!!! KARNOV YOU SMART MF!!!
Can't believe he calculated everything since then, 10 years for when she turns 20, I can't wait for that moment, I'm so excited for it!!!
I feel so bad for helianne, this girl was brought to the duchy and has wanted to leave several times and never even wanted helga's position, EVER. She even went as far as trying to bring helga back. Out of everyone in the present, I think she's the most miserable. Although she's quite naive, she did her best to help with trying to keep a place for helga open when helga eventually comes back.
Yet, Helga refused her. I don't think Helianne ever acknowledged herself as part of the duchy. Like helianne never did anything to Helga, I have no reason to hate helianne, the person to blame is the duchess.
Helga, is one the most selfish fl I have ever seen, she has so many people caring for her but keeps her distance with all of them. Might just drop this honestly, the more I read the more I get pissed off. Her best friend, the crown Prince and even her half-sister, was supporting her but she didn't want that. fuck off. She's so obsessed with getting a title. Denies liking the crown Prince back simply because she wants that title.
Also, Zion, I also feel bad for this man, Helga kept teasing him about liking her and he did like her, but you could tell he didn't want to say it cause she already had someone. But continously teasing him about liking her is such a dick move, basically made him confess to her and then denied his confession - fucking bitch.
Usually I love my powerful fl, but this one's just a bitch for no reason other than, "I want to get that title and so I have to be meana dn distant to everyone".
Couldn’t have worded it better. This is literally not the situation of “oh, she’s so badass, she doesn’t need anyone, she gets it done” or the situation with Penelope from 'Death is the only ending for the villainess' where she really can’t trust anyone because they all hated or killed her ay some point—and that can only rely on herself because of the game’s system. FL HAD people who cared about her, ever since she was young. It’s just that her Mom and dad (I don’t remember him) were the shitty ones.
FL is just a f*cking selfish person and honestly she deserves to be alone after pushing ALL the people who care about her, away. This is truly one of the very few manhwas where I don’t look forward to how the FL succeeds in her plans or whatever. She’s so unlikable and just, as you said, a fucking bitch.
It’s just not a cute thing to make a FL seem “badass” when all she really is, is selfish, manipulative, straight up mean (ex. Zion, because of how she leads him on) and obsessed with the wrong things while completely disregarding and ignoring the people who cared about her— EVEN before shit went down. If this was real life, FL would’ve already been abandoned by everyone and no one would’ve helped her like they do in the manhwa. That’s just plot armor, in my humble opinion.
EXACTLY!!! It may seem cold-hearted to some people, but I would have left her in a heartbeat the moment I knew how she was treating and others around me.
Nahhhhhh not some of ya'll saying you were fine with the incest, WTF?????!?!?!?!??!?
That sister is crazy, not only that the whole clan is weird, like ik there are tribes, historically, that have incest in them but like, come oooonnn. Of all the stories you come up with, why is incest part of the equation??????
I might honestly just drop this, but I will try to continue reading it.
Outside of the incest, it's a good story.
Kinda thought the story was somewhat twisted from what it really was. Think about it, a bag big enough to fit that much money inside would have been so heavy for a child that age to be able to lift.
The adults around Ian have basically failed him. They twisted the story however they liked and on top of that showed his face on TV when he wasn't even able to consent to it himself, his mother, by force, put his face up for everyone to see as well as his name.
I know she lost her husband and is super depressed about it. But, to use her child like that as a way to 'cope' is absolutely disgusting. The amount of psychological trauma Ian is going through is hard to see. Being branded as an 'angel' and everyone expecting him to always be kind to everyone, has honestly got to be tiring; mostly emotionally and mentally draining. A part of why his personality of being nice to everyone constantly is probably due to that kind of upbringing. I'm not saying he's not nice or anything but being that nice to that degree, makes him a people pleaser. I grew up pretty much the same way, but I am slowly starting to grow out of it now.
Being a people pleaser is generally not a bad thing (is what i think so anyways) but the guilt you feel when not doing what the other person wants eventhough you don't want to do it, is so strong that you do it anyways. That part is what eats at you mentally. The best example of Ian doing that just that, is in the recent chapter (ch61).
OMGGGGGG!! IM SO EXCITED TO SEE THAT PAINTING!!! THE WAY SHE CAME OUT OF THE TENT LOOKING SOOOO EXCITED WAS SOOO AMAZING TO SEE AND I FELT HER EXCITEMENT TOO!!
This manga is sooooo sooooo sooooo AMAZING!!! I can't wait for the next season of the anime!!!
That was so beautiful...
I'll probably come back to read this in the future. The side stories were really good too and the ending of the side stories, the way it wrapped up; I think it was nicely done. Would recommend this to anyone just starting to get into BL.
This bl got me laughing so hard almost every chapter, I haven't experienced that in a while for a bl manhwa. In the recent epilogue, I couldn't stop laughing, I'm sorry but him forgetting to change underwear was the funniest thing, like he's just sitting there like nothings wrong. My sense of humour is kinda of broken, I think I need help.