I...have never had such a painful dream before. I woke up and realized that I really fucked up. I wish I had done so much more when I was younger. I wish I had talked to people more. I wish I hadn't been so shy and quiet. Bc now I'm so alone. Ive never felt the loneliness as much as I did when I woke up and realized that I was no longer on high school the boy I had talked to in my dream was already married and had kids with someone else. There would be no next time to sit and chitchat. I want friends. And love. And unfortunately with the way I grew up, I'm not sure how to go about that.
The family is such trash. Unrecyclable garbage. She's literally a child and all they care about is money to waste on gambling and drinking and they're just really selfish people. And the sad thing is people like them don't just exist in stories.