
When I first read this , I thought the boxer uke guy was weird for being scared of the boxer seme and not scared of the yakuza seme , but then after couple of days I remember my own life .. I used to always fight people when I was kid , people older then me and much larger and I was never afraid even when I was lossing fights and I never felt scared or pain , but when my own parents hit me especially my dad , I get so coward and cry and scared of him even his footsteps and the sound of my parents room unlocked alter my fear senses , I many times faked sleeping so I can avoid interaction with him .. now I am older and he sick old man I can easily hit him back but seeing him weakened as old man make all the horrible memories of him make me more angry at my self and at him .. I hate myself for feeling sorry for him , I hate myself for loving him , i hate myself for not being able to forget what he did .. I may say I forgive him but in my heart I am still hurt .
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Point I want to make is the emotions of fear and betrayal come when you trust the person , I trusted and loved my dad so when he hit me cuz I did not want to loss him and loved him I did not fight back so I was scared , but when I fought strangers I had no fear cuz it did not make difference to me if I lost them or not cuz they were nothing to me .
Why is it like webtoon ? , this type style don't suit mangas !