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Joonhyuk’s only happiness in life is good food. So when, one day, he loses all taste he begins...

Never a dull day in mangago

Im about to kick you in the balls for how you're acting rn

Ouuuuu it's time to reread this peak

I read the original novel in the hopes that perhaps it would offer a redemptive or meaningful ending, but unfortunately, that was wishful thinking. The story only continues to descend into deeper psychological and physical torment. Eventually, the uke chooses to stay with the seme, not out of love or healing, but due to long-term manipulation and isolation. The seme confines him to a single room and treats him like a pet—literally using pee pads for dogs. The uke, deprived of any meaningful human connection, begins to crave even the seme's abusive touch simply because it's the only form of contact he receives.

He later escapes, only to be gang raped again—this time by people he once considered friends. In a disturbing sequence, the seme recounts the events of their high school history while the uke is being assaulted. To summarize that backstory: the uke and seme attended the same high school, where the uke—along with his friends—raped and humiliated the seme, even distributing videos of the abuse. Eventually, the uke was injured in a fight and lost his memories, which triggered the seme’s elaborate plan for revenge. He intentionally enrolled at the same university to manipulate the uke, despite the latter having no recollection of the past.

After the second assault, the uke is hospitalized with severe injuries, like broken bones, and falls into a coma. During that time, he dreams of their shared past and begins to confront feelings he may have had for the seme—complicated by internalized homophobia. When he wakes up, he panics at the idea of facing further violence and begs the seme to stay with him out of fear. This leads to their continued, toxic entanglement.

The uke begins hallucinating as a result of his trauma and even attempts suicide. The abuse doesn’t end—in fact, the seme resumes degrading him: sending him to school with a vibrator inside him, tying him up in bathroom stalls (mirroring the abuse the seme once suffered), and reasserting control. Eventually, the uke pleads with him not to leave. The story ends with them together, though not in any emotionally healthy or consensual sense of the word.

The novel is undeniably psychological, and how readers interpret it will largely depend on their own values, sensitivities, and understanding of trauma. On one hand, it's true that the uke committed horrific acts as a teenager, and the seme’s desire for revenge is not entirely unfounded. On the other hand, the uke's amnesia removes the possibility of true reckoning, making the seme’s retaliation more like prolonged sadism than actual justice. Even a character within the story tells the seme he’s gone too far.

Both characters are deeply flawed and morally compromised. One could argue that they deserve each other, but that doesn’t erase the sheer discomfort that comes from witnessing the uke's suffering, especially when he becomes a shell of himself, clinging to the very person responsible for breaking him.

As someone who studied both writing and the sociology of rape in college, I find myself grappling with stories like this. It’s disturbing to see a “revenge” arc constructed almost entirely around themes of rape, manipulation, and dehumanization. These are real-life horrors, and while fiction can absolutely explore difficult topics, the way these elements are portrayed matters immensely. This isn’t a romance—it’s the story of a person being methodically dismantled until they believe abuse is love, which is textbook psychological conditioning.

It’s hard not to see stories like this—and others like Sadistic Beauty: BL Story—as glamorizing or fetishizing rape. The storytelling doesn’t challenge the violence; it seems to dwell in it. Of course, many survivors do stay with their abusers, for complicated and tragic reasons. If the author had handled these themes with more nuance or sensitivity, the narrative might’ve stood as a dark but important portrayal of trauma bonding. But instead, the framing often feels like it's catering to a rape fantasy rather than condemning it. That’s what unsettles me the most.

Song Gi Tae was walking around with his boyfriend when suddenly everything went dark. When he opened...

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is this what im yoon felt during those 35 years?

I can't lie bro i cried to this lmaoaoao im glad they get to be together in the end but dude i need more even the side couple's story

200 years after the asteroid collision, mankind had risen but not everybody was equal. Im Yoon, who ...

I can't even imagine how this will end

REF DO SOMETHINGGGG

I've lost the plot

Why are there so many duplicate chaps where should i start reading

In his second year of high school, Goo Do-hoon, who suddenly transfers to a new school, is bullied f...

Reading this is making me go crazy lowkey