Camelia November 8, 2023 12:48 pm

I read previous work of Jaxx few times, it had some things, but nothing like this rape here and that's why I liked her writing. Ever since it came back from hiatus it became more like all the mainstream BLs. Why every single one need to have rape. Like do authors understand the concept of rape and how it affects people?...
I would understand if plot revolve around someone's trauma or abuse but when they just put this much graphics and violent sexual assaults it just make me dislike story I liked very much before. And before anyone attack me, I've read literally thousand BL's and saw bunch of shit, I'm not snowflake who's complaining. It's just disappointing when even really good authors who know how to write good stuff turn for 180° and randomly decide to put rape.
Remember the beginning of the story, when Jin was top with some random guy. They took drugs (way less than Matthew ofc, they were conscious but still had drugs in system), Jin went on so long, guy asked him to stop because he couldn't do it anymore and ofc Jin stopped. They continued with bj while Jin imagined Matthew. It was one of rare situations we see top stopping when asked. So this now was kinda disappointing. But maybe Matthew will get back to senses, understand what he did and realize Jin did all of it to protect him (he acted a bit childish even tho I understand him).

    elle November 8, 2023 1:08 pm

    Going off from the crumbs I have I think Matthew is drunk & thinks this is a dream so he probably? Maybe would’ve have forced Jin like this if he was sober. Obvs doesn’t excuse him from his actions, but yeah. Also, apparently 10 chaps are missing so idk the bg of what led up to this point so I could be wrong :’)

    Camelia November 8, 2023 1:28 pm
    Going off from the crumbs I have I think Matthew is drunk & thinks this is a dream so he probably? Maybe would’ve have forced Jin like this if he was sober. Obvs doesn’t excuse him from his actions, but... elle

    I didn't attack Matthews actions, I just said my thoughts about authors putting rape everywhere. He's heavily drugged and Brandon said some awful shit about Jin to him (wanted to make Matthew feel jealous and less worth/important to Jin) We know how drugs can mess people up so it's obvious why is he acting the way he do. Those chapters are missing because someone posted very bad unofficial translation and than took it down, now someone posted new chapters (maybe the same person) so people who don't mind reading and not understanding much can see what came next. I've read the original raws so it's pretty clear to me what is going on from the beginning.

    elle November 8, 2023 3:15 pm
    I didn't attack Matthews actions, I just said my thoughts about authors putting rape everywhere. He's heavily drugged and Brandon said some awful shit about Jin to him (wanted to make Matthew feel jealous and l... Camelia

    I see c: I didn’t know what was going on & thought you were in the same boat; my bad! You’re ofc entitled to your own opinions & I didn’t mean to upset you if I did. Ty for the clarification.

    Camelia November 8, 2023 3:27 pm
    I see c: I didn’t know what was going on & thought you were in the same boat; my bad! You’re ofc entitled to your own opinions & I didn’t mean to upset you if I did. Ty for the clarification. elle

    No, it's totally fine, I'm sorry if I sounded rude. My way of expressing in English isn't at it's finest, so I may sound bad

    elle November 8, 2023 4:32 pm
    No, it's totally fine, I'm sorry if I sounded rude. My way of expressing in English isn't at it's finest, so I may sound bad Camelia

    You’re all good c:

Camelia November 3, 2023 12:02 pm

After everything that happened, timer appears for Namu, it's his turn
Ik everyone hates him for some reason (he has a bit of annoying behaviour and is everywher, but it's not a crime

    Woomb November 3, 2023 12:36 pm

    I mean he's the reason everything went south with Hoon and Haedam lol of course ppl aren't gonna like him ┑( ̄Д  ̄)┍ without his intervention they probably would've been able to go slower and Hoon would've had the time to process his feelings

    Camelia November 3, 2023 3:45 pm
    I mean he's the reason everything went south with Hoon and Haedam lol of course ppl aren't gonna like him ┑( ̄Д  ̄)┍ without his intervention they probably would've been able to go slower and Hoon woul... Woomb

    I agree, but to hate him to such extent is a bit to much...like he was annoying, but it's just teenage stuff and it's not like the drama between Hoon and Haedam lasted so long. Author probably added him just so plot isn't smooth line

    Woomb November 4, 2023 3:22 am
    I agree, but to hate him to such extent is a bit to much...like he was annoying, but it's just teenage stuff and it's not like the drama between Hoon and Haedam lasted so long. Author probably added him just so... Camelia

    Tbh miscommunication is just lazy writing, they could have just take it slow and learn from each other instead of author creating a situation that forces them to be urgent about it.

Camelia November 1, 2023 6:41 am

With cheapter 110 it's finally the end. It was predictable how it will end, SY would always accept TS no matter what, with all his flaws and shit, but honestly I expected way more, like full chapter of them talking and TS apologizing over and over. Only thing I liked are last few panels, TS finally decided to get out of the shadow and walk BESIDE SY, not behind or in front, which implies he finally see SY as equal and not as a thing he should keep on arm length so he can't escape but also can't be unnecessarily close. Also, colors represent TS's change and realization (smth like in BJ Alex when Jiwoon finally realised he loves DG). But overall entire story was super messy, after 1st season storyline went all over the place.
As for Minhyuk, at the beginning he was my fav character and it didn't changed, Ik he's not great but who is in this entire story....He left just like he appeared and it makes me sad, he could have been way more interesting character, we saw different sides of him but only truth is that he longs for love and I hoped we'll see some light at the end of the tunnel for him too.

    Spamalot November 2, 2023 4:24 pm

    Wow, THANKS!
    I wasn't sure if I wanted to continue reading after season 1 and you just helped me decide to drop the series.

Camelia October 29, 2023 7:22 am

Bro is right he's not gay, he just failed to remember that bisexual people exist

    KrB October 29, 2023 8:28 am

    Smh they always do in BL... Kinda wish the authors would stop with the "if you're not straight you're gay" thing (especially as an omnisexual myself)

    Camelia October 29, 2023 12:08 pm
    Smh they always do in BL... Kinda wish the authors would stop with the "if you're not straight you're gay" thing (especially as an omnisexual myself) KrB

    Totally agree, like dude who thought he was straight, slept with another dude and automatically became gay. There's no way someone can be bi, pan etc....

Camelia October 29, 2023 7:19 am

We are getting new story from this author. It's called something like Love and Roll, looks like the characters are in rock band or something. Art is beautiful but proportions again are so off. Ik It's just the art, if story is okay it doesn't matter as much but having them look like wide closet with ping pong sized head + super small petite doll bittom is Idk just a bit strange.

    Sashasunflow4321 November 1, 2023 4:24 am

    I saw some pics and they look like a carbon copy of Seunghyun and Youngjin just with different skin colours

    Camelia November 1, 2023 5:06 am
    I saw some pics and they look like a carbon copy of Seunghyun and Youngjin just with different skin colours Sashasunflow4321

    So true xD I've read it, ot's a short story, literally only about sex, for some reason those scenes made me uncomfortable, not because it's bad or violent, story isn't like it, but the way certain things looks.

Camelia October 23, 2023 9:09 am

Unfortunately it's confusing because there are things going on in smut scenes as well and those are cropped out so some parts doesn't make sense since context is missing. I don't mind reading stories without smut, but having ones like this where they just cut out r18/19 scenes is so irritating. It's supposed to be for adults, so leave it like that or fix it good enough so speech bubbles aren't missing. (Also before I get attacked by anyone, Ik it's not author's fault and we shouldn't be complaining as much considering we read it here, but even if I read legally it wouldn't have changed the fact that some parts are confusing or just not as detailed since text and images are missing)

    Foxychan_ October 23, 2023 5:46 pm

    Bru I feel you. I'm here from the start and I cried for two years everytime I saw an update cut and reassembled like Frankenstein monster. I HATE manta with all my heart. So I'm really happy we finally have the mature version, finally I will understand seriously the story, in every little aspect.

Camelia October 17, 2023 4:29 am

Matthew will probably assault the shit out of Jin before drugs effects stops and Jin will go with it same as he stopped before punching him because he remembered his afraid/shocked face when punching him before. Couldn't understand very well, but think that Damon said some ugly stuff about Jin and the way he likes having sex just to piss him. But Matthew is under the influence so everything is messed up, he's not even aware it's really Jin Infront of him. Boy gonna regret pretty much after he wake up. He didn't deserve to ve dragged around, but at the same time he need to grow up go on some therapy for childhood trauma and abandonment issues, make one appointment for Jin after that and they can live happily

Camelia September 23, 2023 3:59 pm

Checked the raws, seems like the story is ending on chapter 58 since it's only state 'The end' and not end of the season 3. I hope there will be at least few chapters of side stories because there are things that have to be explained or shown.

    thatbishwhoreads September 24, 2023 4:34 am

    There will be side stories! The creator confirmed it on the final review last night on raws too. There were QnAs too. She answered some questions about the characters and stories.

    Camelia September 24, 2023 6:34 am
    There will be side stories! The creator confirmed it on the final review last night on raws too. There were QnAs too. She answered some questions about the characters and stories. thatbishwhoreads

    Thank you for letting me know! I don't understand Korean so it was unclear what was said

    Lea September 24, 2023 8:40 pm

    I /need/ side stories. They can't leave me hanging there TvT

Camelia September 19, 2023 8:08 am

I've read the raws, mc got attacked and raped on the streets, that's why he was crying every time...he got so much trauma from that obviously and it's impacting his mental health. ML isn't a bad guy, but I don't like the way author put up the situation where he didn't even bother to explain to MC what BDSM is and how it's working. MC see all of it as more abuse he has to endure because he is survivor of such horrific attack while he obviously never told anyone about it and he never received any help. Looking at the other works from the same author it's obvious they like to makes stories with abuse and mental health struggles, where characters are even suicidal. So this one will probably be long struggle until we see the light at the end of the tunel.

    Rome1706 September 19, 2023 4:37 pm

    Oohhh, so that's why he kept crying sometimes with no reasons... for a moment there I was kinda start to hate the MC cuz he keeps on crying with or without reasons like wtf, but now I know why... thanks for the spoiler!!

    Camelia September 19, 2023 4:53 pm
    Oohhh, so that's why he kept crying sometimes with no reasons... for a moment there I was kinda start to hate the MC cuz he keeps on crying with or without reasons like wtf, but now I know why... thanks for the... Rome1706

    Unfortunately yes it's still not revealed completely who were the guys that attacked him, but it was bloody...He just need professional help, hope ML will realize something is wrong on time because I really started feeling sorry for him. I'm usually very annoyed with characters that cry all the time (unless there is resl reason like abuse or in this case strong response to trauma) but our poor MC is just afraid and lost.

    AWinterWonderLand September 22, 2023 1:14 pm
    Oohhh, so that's why he kept crying sometimes with no reasons... for a moment there I was kinda start to hate the MC cuz he keeps on crying with or without reasons like wtf, but now I know why... thanks for the... Rome1706

    Same. I literally just wrote a comment regarding that. I did suspect he had some kind of sexual abuse but that wasn't made clear. Was finding him annoying ASF.

    Rice Senpai September 22, 2023 5:26 pm

    Thank you for explaining this. I was so confused as to why people were automatically putting this as BDSM. Especially since the MC has no freaking idea what’s going on. It’s abuse at this point.

    Lin September 24, 2023 1:21 pm

    I finished the novel. Spoiler





























    He's been gang raped in second year of high school by 3 upper-classmates. His parents didn't press charge, I think, they're ashamed that their son is gay and the perpetrators are minor so a settlement are made. The uke than transfered to a school in far away and live alone since then.

    Camelia September 24, 2023 5:40 pm
    I finished the novel. Spoiler He's been gang raped in second year of high school by 3 upper-classmates. His parents didn't press charge, I think, they're ashamed that their son is gay and the perpetrators are m... Lin

    I see, so his parents are garbage as well.... Poor guy didn't have anyone to support him.
    Could you share the link for the novel in case it's in English?

    Lin September 26, 2023 6:44 am
    I see, so his parents are garbage as well.... Poor guy didn't have anyone to support him.Could you share the link for the novel in case it's in English? Camelia

    Sorry for the late reply. https://www.wattpad.com/user/kahoko52 It's machine translation though

    Akary October 4, 2023 4:23 pm

    Can u give me a raw link?

    Jessi October 4, 2023 6:53 pm
    I finished the novel. Spoiler He's been gang raped in second year of high school by 3 upper-classmates. His parents didn't press charge, I think, they're ashamed that their son is gay and the perpetrators are m... Lin

    Omggg can u please spoil more (=・ω・=)

    Lin October 5, 2023 1:01 pm
    Omggg can u please spoil more (=・ω・=) Jessi

    It's kind of different to summary because the plot has workplace politics' conflicts. After his parents found out the uke is gay and the g@ngr word, he has to move out, study highschool and uni while live alone for 10 years. He only keeps contact with his younger sister, not with his parents. In future manhwha chapter, his mother calls, wanting him for the first time in 10 years, wanting him to help out his sister's studying abroad expenses. He says no of course. Meanwhile, in the company, some directors mess with the TF project, the uke hears some stories about the seme in the past, how he's being hated by the high-ups, because of the TF project would find out departments' problems. The uke and seme grow closer. Then the seme find out about the r word incident from the uke's family member. They fight, then talk frankly about the themselves, kind of reconciling and officially becoming lovers.

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