
I love too much and is too clingy (according to my ex, my only relationship in my life lol). He told me that he felt suffocated about my affection for him. That he gets annoyed everytime I ask for a call or everytime i ask what's he doing (I used to call him twice a day/ once after he got bothered about it)
I message him about what his sched was, if he was alright, what's he eating (all things I thought was normal for a couple to ask their partners).
He got mad at me during the year end party for being too "clingy" (which is me staying near him all the time as I don't know anyone/ not really close with anyone on that party). I pretty much felt my heart tore that day.
I then apologized and tried my best to not act clingy anymore, he argued with me less so I thought it was going good.
But then I went over to his house for an anniversary surprise (our 3rd year of dating), he hasn't answered nor messaged me that day so I planned a party for him on his house since he was out.
I bought him some merch of an anime he loved, then I hid behind his closet. What do you know, 5 minutes later he drives up to the front door, I hear his footsteps along with another I don't recognise.
And he opened the bedroom door and then that's when I knew my heart was broken. I walked through the gap of the closet doors to surprise him only to see him smooching another girl who was clearly surprised when she saw me.
I ran home crying, the end

Poor you, I'm so sorry. People who love strongly, it makes me sad when they want to stop after being heart broken. Your love wasn't meant to be, but that strong affection, someone else will love and appreciate. I'm a person who sucks at showing affection, but I loved it when my friends or the like were clingy (I'm emotionally closed off, so I don't do dating) but being loved makes me feel mattered and I hope to return that sort of strong love towards someone dear to me in the future

I feel like the scent he's been looking for all along is definitely from the uke, most likely the uniform he used to wear when he was still in sports. We can see a bit of flashback where I can conclude they already met back when they were younger, where ml is told to hide and seek with a person we can see who wears the same uni as uke. And uke did mention he was an early bloomer back when he was still into sports. I think ml used to get picked on back then and then uke helped chased them off but somehow forgot about ml due to the incident 2 years ago where we can see his head bleeding from the argument he had at the pc cafe.
Ml probably got ptsd from then, probably waited for uke to come back for him to then he forced himself to stay awake, since he couldn't go out, he used his nose to try and track the scents passing by, which messed up his sense of smell? And the ptsd made him unable to sleep unless he literally passes out. And made him have insomnia whenever he tries to sleep.
Now we see on chap early chaps that he somehow fell asleep just from uke's scent, therefore brungs us back to the theory, he can finally sleep feeling safe in uke's embrace.
Like equality man, save the dudes too