First, try to take a deep breath. Then I try to think what I'm afraid of, think of that as a irrelevant thing or find ways to avoid what's making me feel anxious, distract myself if possible. reply
Why would you want to feel that happiness if they're not that close? I think is okey and normal to feel that way, you're not wishing the worst for them so... reply
Really stress out with work till getting a neckpain, depressed about not being useful at work, my department got drowned because my bathroom was clogged, getting bad sleep routine... well, surviving but I'm ok reply