
Everyone Is saying that he "put up" with it so he wouldn't be thrown away. that makes it seem like the doctor is forcing him. the doctor can read him better than he knows himself, that's why I believe the doctor is a good fit for him.
As for the "putting up" with, you are at your most vulnerable when you are naked whether that's emotionally or physically. we bear ourselves and we have to deal with our trauma and insecurities he is recalling that right now.
I believe that that's only half truth I've been in that position. I feel like he wants to be loved and I feel like he wants to take a chance on the doctor because he believes he can trust him.
you don't just give yourself to somebody because you don't want to be thrown away at least not him he was well aware of what he said he said he "wanted" to remember what happened last time.
"wanted" is a very important word in this scenario maybe I'm just fooling myself.
maybe I see things that aren't there, but I believe deep down he really wants someone to see him, as we all do.
he has had feelings being branded one way or another his whole life and for the first time someone is looking at him and treating him like a person really seeing him.
he may want this so bad that he doesn't want to "mess it up" and he doesn't want to be thrown away and feel like a failure like he's hopeless and no one will love him I think that's an insecurity we all have a had at one point in time in our life. but I could be wrong I also prefer the terms "mess it up" over "put up" with.
Bottom line he is worth it and deserving of love and I believe the doctor sees this.
Be kind in your responses please

...after all the sexual tension..
Apollo looked so pained in the face right before he kissed phi. poor guy. The problem is Apollo is a straight laced guy and it's probably going to affect how he does his job, and he may want to quit afterwards. he's all about the rules. (He may have just extra marked himself as a target for the "stalker".)
Phi knew what he was doing..but if I was him I wouldn't pass up the opportunity either. He played on Apollo's genuine care and concern in his emotional state.
I would have really preferred If phi looked even a little contrite afterwards maybe have the same reaction as apollo...but I suppose that's not really his style.
Thirst note
I had all the time in the world for apollo when he took that shirt off and especially when he kissed him.
I think we would all have a lot more sex if we had partners that apollo swag. It looked like apollo was genuinely wanting to take care of phi and wanted him to feel good such a considerate lover (his wife is stupid) it was very beautiful and believable I didn't see two men I saw two people engaged in sexual activity that looked like lovers
Ok I'm done be kind in your responses

the best one. i loved the art work ,the passion, the tears ,the reunion, this was just everything.
now i have to re-watch it and pay attention to them. sry my mind was on Kei Tsukishima and sexy ass Tetsurō Kuroo.
ratchet side note
he went all in on eating the booty like i almost lost my shit that was so passionate

They tried to do kou dirty with mitsuba..(I secretly ship)
I literally screamed "no don't fall for it” of all the people mitsuba is his greatest weakness because he failed to save him (imo)
and his mom she's been gone too long,he knows better even though he misses her he knows. He knows his brother's reaction to the supernatural
.. maannnn that's the kinda twilight zone that make you do some soul searching.. I can't wait to see what happens next
Side note: we really need the anime to continue if they can draw out 700 and something episodes of Naruto then they definitely can finish this I think it's worth seeing in animation 12 episodes is not enough I'm just saying.
on kang moo's face when he said "fuck" right before he asked to be untied. omg i almost lost my shit. he is usually so composed when they have sex it was nice to see him "ruffled" and submissive.
i do wish he would have stayed tied up
but of course, if he can fight a boar with a knife and survive, it would look stupid for him logically to not be able to escape being tied up with anything least of all a tie. he is after all a psycho (and i mean that in the best possible way) and we knew he was gonna get out of it anyway.
even if he stayed tied up we all know it would have been for kirin's benefit and i would have been ok and still died from the smexy that left my brain smoking.
Wtf I was just writing exactly the same thing ,I even wrote one line and I saw ur comment and deleted it wttfff I even wrote the first line very similar to ur ,u literally read me thoughts T_T,guess I'll have to change my comment now lol
nooo i wanna hear what you have to say! sometimes i talk too much (just check my responses on my page lol) you may say something that i didn't think of, but if you do read my other responses to other manga i have read drop a comment lol