The roughest part of being a reader of this is realizing yona and chang il didn't spend all that much time together. I started this cause it seems like a cute, funny concept for a smut story but then just went down the entirely 'porn with a sprinkle of plot' route . And most of it wasn't even with yona AND was literally 99% r*pe at that
So just a warning to ppl, who like me expected it to be abt a romance that develops between a guy who falls in love with a prostitut. Changil and yona relationship is barely even half of it. It's mostly the chan-il getting r*ped by random creeps (not yona) who are obsessed with him. And don't expect him to get rescued or anything, cause twice he's captured and yona can't help him. Even when yona gets him back they're in hiding.
All in all, I expected tragedy cause that's how most stories where someone falls in love with a prostitute goes but they 100% just went down the trauma porn/porn hardly any plot route. Again, if you liked the story, enjoy but this is just a warning for those who expected more romance. This is mainly porn with a lot of r*pe. The side stories confirms it, cause no author is making a "what if " with the rapist if it isn't purely for the sake of porn
After seeing yoohan crawling to the phone trying to pick it up made me so happy to see he didn't want to die anymore and was willing rely on Jay for help by trying to answer his call. I did expect there would be a chapter where Jay has a freak out about him almost dying... but not like this also it's so fucked up of Jay to try to recreate the guilt he feels towards his FAMILY dying..
that part was kinda funny to me tho cause why should yoohan feel guilty about his hand like bro, jay literally grabbed his hand forced him to cut him lmao. I think it was just to show how far he'd go to make yoohan have a reason to live / or to show how unhinged jay is. But yoohan if actually feels guilt for that later I'm gonna go nuts lol
It is a good kind of guilt though, to make others have a reason to live. For people with suicidal thoughts, it is much better to pin them over any reason to make them choose life in every possible way. Even it is forced, at least in the long run they can grew to accept that reason and help in widen their perspective to life in finding more reasons to live.
I know people who used to be in such place and sometimes even one single reason even if it was forced to them can be their brake to stop them from self exiting. One person I know told me her break was her dog. She said since she and ex split up the dog remained in her care. She was severely depressed and had to be hospitalized just to prevent her from taking her life. Then she said one day her dog came up to her skin and bones because she couldn’t take care of her. Then she said, even though she doesn’t want to get up, she did. Slowly she start getting out from he suicidal thoughts. She still has episodes but she told me every time she sees her dog she get enough strength to get up and face life again.
I witnessed one of her episodes, I can say her dog was really sensitive. She got up that time and went to the rest room. I didn’t hear any noise inside and minutes later her dog was super agitated. So I went and check on her inside and there she was sitting on the corner inside the shower room all clutched down while sobbing quietly as her body shakes. Never thought that a happy and all smiles person like her can supper from severe depression.
Idkk If I agree with that but in this specific case it's really unwarranted. Yoohan already wants to live, he doesn't need any kind of messed up motivation to keep him alive anymore. Jay just jumped to conclusions
But also, the first part of this story is yoohan being suicidal but forcing himself to stay alive as guilt. Jay is the one who convinced him to let go cause all he was doing was punishing himself. Yoohan already experienced that and we saw how that went for him so I disagree that is good
I think he got crazy with the thought of Yoohan wanting to get killed because of the suicide scene
Huh so they're BOTH obsessed.. its just that hyo uns obsession can be self destructive but taehyuks more like classic yandere
Btw i honestly love seeing a uke who is just as obsessed too
Sameeee it sometimes feels like only one is into the other and that’s typically the seme and the uke is forced to be with them. I love to see the passion, and in this case by passion I mean possessiveness.
Mutually obsessed couple is a feast
I'm actually kinda glad it went this way cause the last chapter was everyone was like "omg this is so wholesome they're communicating" and I was like bitch where....yeonwoo asked him to stop meeting his oldest friend because he's jealous of him and didn't explain why. Hwibum was ready to start distancing himself from his friend just because his partner was jealous. Pleasee remember hwibum doesn't have the context of Hyuk liking him so it's weird he just agreed.
In the new chapter yeonwoo says he's not acting jealous anymore cause he trusts hwibum only BECAUSE he said he would hang out with hyuk less. Thats not trust. And blocking the friends number / being scared something will happen if he learns hyuk likes him isn't trust either. There was 5% communication at best. Not to mention somehow over the course of a chapter he misinterpreted "distancing" to "never meeting him again".
Yoonbum does have a reason to be wary of hyuk since he knows he likes hwibum but thinking hwibum will leave him if they meet is the opposite of trust lets be real. I don't understand why people are being like "nooo it was getting so healthy" not really. Imm gonna need the REAL communication arc to start now
right cause everyone was like “omg healthiest relationship in bl” “we love communication” and all this and i’m just thinking bro what… LMAOOO because let’s be fr here did we forget who yeonwoo is?? the whole relationship started because he threatened to kill himself that’s not healthy. I also saw people shocked that he blocked hyuk’s number as if we aren’t shown multiple times throughout the story that yeonwoo has horrible abandonment and jealously issues. like you said they did communicate last chapter but it was barely anything for everyone to start going crazy I was really trying to find why everyone was like that I know communication is not very common in bl’s but come on he didn’t even tell him the full story and although yeonwoo does have a good reason for hwibum to stop hanging out with hyuk. He didn’t TELL hwibum that reason so he literally just looks like a crazy obsessive guy that wants hwibum to have no friends. It’s also crazy that yeonwoo misinterpreted distancing as never seeing him again as if hyuk isn’t a childhood friend that would be really hard to cut off randomly especially since their families know each other.
I wish more comments would focus on how devastating things are for cirrus cause things he doesn't deserve keep piling up, like what his dad and his freaky ass step mom did, his dog getting sick, a stalker that tried exposing him and Skylar and how it's so tragic that on top of all that, everything bad he did to is out in the open. Like the timing for all that to happen then besides of all that shit he does not deserve, two people he cares about the most can't stand him right now.
But instead all the comments are "he did nothing wrong what is rin so mad for he just introduced her to her crush and told chan-il to ask rin herself what happened !!"
...please be fr.. Its so crazy to interpret it so innocently, he knew what he did and he straight up told her that much.
Like yall Im trying to cry together in the comments but it's just a wall of denying he did anything bad to rin pls focus up my boy is about to crash out and you're all focused on the wrong thing
scrolling thru the comments and there are so many saying "what is she so mad for"
I love cirrus but they are close friends for so long and he chose to use her like a pawn. Of course the outcome wasn't bad and she wasn't forced to date chan-il like some of you keep mentioning, but a friend manipulating you to do what they want with bad intentions must feel shitty. And even worse in my opinion, he let her boyfriend assume they were cheating together. Like, what kind of friend lets your boyfriend assume you are cheating on them with you? He could have explained it but decided not to just because he was upset with chan-il even though she's his closest friend. A good friend would never do that
I get feeling the slap is an overreaction, tbh I disagree personally, but its fair to think so. But so many comments that are mad about the slap are straight up acting like she doesnt have a reason to be mad which is crazy. What he did is literally the set-up of the century. Like really think, imagine your own best friend knowingly letting your boyfriend believe you cheated on him. Tell me rn you wouldn't scrap with the friend that did this cause come on. That would destroy most friendships. Maybe she didn't need to slap him but OFC she should be mad.
These past few chapters are devastating for me but yall you gotta know we can be both sad for cirrus but also acknowledge that rn he's just laying in the bed he made. He hurt Skylar, he hurt rin and now they're mad at him. I want this to be over and resolved and im even more devastated reading this after watching the final round of alnst but I'm not at all surprised, them having this reaction was gonna have to happen eventually
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I agree completely, but I don't believe Cirrus' intentions were necessarily bad. He 100% did manipulate the situation but with his twisted way of thinking I feel he really thought by Making Skylar give up on chan li he was doing the right thing.
Of all languages you could have spoken you chose the truth.
Cyrus can't go living his life treating others like filth just because of trauma.
I understand that it has a deep impact on the way he relates to others but like honey repeating that cycle of violence ain't going to give you the things that you want.
Yeahhh I definitely see his thought process that's why it hurts so much. I get why he thought it'd be ok if he just never brought it up, but of course skylar wouldn't trust him if he learned the truth holds head in hands
Thank you cause I want cirrus to be happy and free from his trauma, but some people are acting rabid when there's any negativity directed towards him at ALL. Like so many comments are just "it wasn't that bad why did she have to slap him!!!" as if cirrus doesn't hand out beatdowns like it's his job. I mean it's usually deserved but still he's not a saint and what he did to rin hurts her more than she did with that slap.
Like lets be furious for cirrus about the things terrible things in his life that he CANT control rather than the things he brought on himself by hurting the people he cares about
Exactly!! As sad as it is to see, because we readers a privy to Cirrus’ growth, there’s no excuse for all the manipulating and lying he’s done. All these reactions from characters are the consequences of his own actions. The fact that it’s happening back to back when he’s at his lowest is sad and makes it difficult to watch but it’s important to remember these characters are reacting as such for the sake of it, but because he’s messed up big time
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Cirrus you can talk! Like one in a while and if the person doesn't want to hear it or is an ashole you can cut them off or if the situation needs it you may throw a punch.
Like the way is set up is so good cus Cirrus is just becoming his dad.
Instead of dealing with the problem just let it simmer and be an ashole about it and hurt everyone surrounding you.
Right like WE can see how he feels and everything he goes through so we don't want him to suffer but that's what makes this so painful. At first it was all these things he didn't deserve coming at him and then everything he did comes out?? What he did had to come out eventually but why nowww I hoped jt would be when his family stress and stuff was resolved but everything is happening one after the other it's too much
Right like it's scary to see the path he's about to go down. I didn't even take that hes acting like his dad until you mentioned it, i REALLY hope he stops before he really does become like him, but seeing him mad at skylar for not forgiving him for lying and manipulating him is.. That is so Intro to Controlling Partner, making them feel guilty for not accepting apologies. I think the next chapter is gonna show whether this slap is either going to be the thing that knocks sense into him and makes him realise how bad what he did to her and Skylar was. Cause so far he knows he did bad things but is angry when he doesnt forgiveness immediately instead of reflecting. Like he didn't even apologize to rin, he just stated it as a fact like it was a minor inconvenience she wouldn't care about. And maybe now he'll see how angry she is and realise what he's doing wrong?
Either that or he's gonna become even more depressed and feel alone that now everyone he cares about is mad at him on top of everything. Everything went so wrong for me watching alien stage earlier today so I really hope it's the first option !!
So now we know all info about hyo un is so limited because of the brother. But why did he want to burn the books about the dragon in his past life? Was that before he regretted how he went about things or that he wanted to make it harder for taehyuk learn about hyo un when he's reborn?
I think it was more like to atone for his sins in a way. Like burning the root of his obsession in his past life. At least that I think? Im not entirely sure either but that was the vibe i got from it
i believe it was a way to protect hyoun and allow himself to hide, give him freedom from humanity’s aggression and or dependence. Hyoun did express how he hated humans and only wanted to wait for Mc.
The first time I read chapter 68 it was a good translation but now it doesn't even make sense what happened why would someone go through the trouble of uploading a bad translation over a completely fine one
eresemo is considering r rated side stories.. I hope they decide to do it
I would love cute and slice-of-life ones too :3
YESSSSSS ITS BACK OMG FINALLY OMG OMG
I know it was pretty slice-of-life ish but I think I have to read from the beginning cuz i forgot so much