Tbh I don't even know why these side stories were necessary, it's doing the opposite of what I suppose the author was trying to do. He is saying the same thing to himself over and over again. This needs to be wrapped up already.
His line of thought is always like this to sum it up "he's pretty controlling, jealous, toxic and a red flag but I'm not gonna do anything about it anyway" ._.
This is too beautiful!!!! Ahhh but the author took down their lips