
I'm so happy to log back in and find 4 more chapters! These are funny and sexy and just majestic. I kinda am still waiting for Ilic to take initiative in bed, but I don't know if we'll ever see it! Next chapter, maybe? Like, I really need Ilic to show how much he enjoys it. (Would the Duke survive this?) And did Ilic just imagine being asked by the Duke to dance with him? Hehe!
My boy Sayan shouldn't watch any more plays, wtf is his imagination.
And my boy Ilic should know that he reacts to Sayan's face not really because Sayan is so fantastically beautiful but because baby Ilic is as gay as they get.

It's re-read number ...th and only now I understood the side-stories. I was complaining how the story about Sayan having torture rooms and an inner voice was never fully addressed when IT WAS: loving Ilic made the insanity go away, and Sayan disposed of all the torture rooms because they would have frightened Ilic - and the way I understood it, the crazy inner voice wanted Sayan to torture Ilic had he betrayed him, but Sayan was so in love that hurting Ilic was not an option and in the end he even started courting him. It seems in his youth he thought he is a sadist and then meeting Ilic he realized he never wanted to hurt him (only tease). (=・ω・=)

I just didn't understand, at one point he actually began to disappear? But that's it? Then he just didn't?

My interpretation was that Clyde had been wrestling with an ambivalent state of mind, struggling with a desire to return while also fearing separation from Yuu. In the moment he began to disappear and Yuu shows him that desperation as a response, its likely he realizes how much he doesn't want to leave him behind more than he wants to go back, and also how much Yuu doesn't want him to go either. It serves to mentally and spiritually ground him there henceforth. I also saw it as him making a sacrifice in that moment, to prevent Yuu from becoming injured (since he was about to take a nasty fall down the stairs from phasing through his body), and that instance of instinct driven by his desire to protect likely overrided the spiriting away that was about to happen, kind of like when a ghost has such strong desires that they can't move on even in death. Sort of sealed his fate, as it were
I'm still hoping for an update. Does anyone know where I can read it in the original language? (Korean, if I'm not mistaken?)