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jo is absolutely freaking gorgeous

"1920s Seoul. A murder occurs at the Haehwa School Lantern Festival involving a Japanese boy. T...

everything was just tied together from the first to the last part of the story, it’s so perfect. definitely one of my most memorable reads in a while, but i will never try to reread this ever again

i just hate that this masterpiece has a lot of readers who understand the story below the surface. it’s not just about who will be ian’s endgame is, both the main leads and the main character has flaws. like tj, his character has always been selfish, always looking for power because without it he feels useless and “nothing”. this flaw is so toxic that he wishes to drag ian down with him to share in the emptiness he feels, since ian is someone he has shared a bond with for more than half his life.

they both experienced the worst, but for ian, those experiences had such a negative impact that he no longer wanted to be trapped in the same cycle, he’s already losing himself. ian was tired from everything, so he tried to run away. tj, on the other hand kept wanting for more, he believes that the power he’s been desiring from the start is in the grasp of his hand, but what happened? 20 years has already passed. there’s no way their relationship can be salvaged anymore, the facts are right in our face. the scars they both inflicted to each other are too deep to heal, no matter what they do. this conversation from this chapter between ian and tj should’ve happened years ago. i am just so proud of ian for finally standing up for himself, and i genuinely hope he gets what his heart truly wants.

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hes THAT man

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THIS IS SO PEAKKKKK

in my eyes this is haruka from windbreaker lol

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ABSOLUTE CINEMA

OH HELL YEAH

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Gonna be real, some of yall have the reading comprehension of a baked bean. Not trying to be mean (sorta), I just think yall lack the depth and maturity to understand Ian without calling him a whore or mischaracterizing him altogether. Once yall live long enough to be in relationships and experience some real shit, then you'll be able to understand him better. Ian is not a whore, hes a former gang member/drug addict trying to find peace in his life but is trapped by his love for someone who is still deep in the very life he wants to leave behind. TJ and Ian love each other, but their biggest bond is through their trauma, some of which TJ catalyzed btw. Ian found someone who not only loves him, but also gives him the peace he so desperately wants, Jo. "Why doesn't he stay with Jo and stop two-timing Jo and TJ then?" you might be asking. It's because he is battling with what he wants vs what he thinks he deserves.

Jo represents what Ian desires in life: peace, love thats out in the open, safety, and normalcy. TJ represents what Ian thinks he deserves: stagnation and settlement to atone for his past sins. TJ literally hired people to beat Ian up to prevent him from leaving, tried tying him down with debt to have him stay longer, said Jo having a normal life would scare Ian away and that he was the only one who knew how to tame him... TJ is an abusive partner and has beaten Ian down into thinking that he is the only one he can go to for comfort and the only person he deserves. In this very chapter (81) Ian is saying "I'm the worst" about himself and how someone like him would just end up hurting Jo, he feels defeated. And who does Ian go to every time he feels like he is undeserving of a better life? TJ. The same person who has kept him in the same place, only loving him behind closed doors, for all these years. TJ serves as a reminder to Ian that he is "bad" and "selfish" and isn't deserving of the life he wants/desires, and TJ preys on that insecurity to keep him as his DL lover. Not to mention, everything with Jamie practically forced Ian to leave Jo in the first place! Ian wanted to go back to Jo, but his past life still haunts him and he doesn't want to put Jo or Jo's family in danger because of it.

Ian isn't a whore for not being able to choose between TJ and Jo, he is complex and in a difficult position by having to chose between love that would set him free (Jo) and love that he's trauma bonded with and has found comfort in (TJ). I can only hope that the author is brave enough to actually make Ian move on from TJ, but then again, BL writers love to keep the MCs with their abusive partner and give them a redemption because they had that planned from the start, and we're just along for the ride. Who knows if the next chapter will lay the seeds for making Ian and TJ endgame or breaking them up, I truly hope it's the ladder because I love TJ, but he doesn't deserve Ian and Jo is really good for him. But they again, these decisions are left up to the author.

i don’t know, but the fact that i’m still reading comments, saying “jo should just give up and look for someone” or “i hope jo finds a better partner/person than ian” makes me think you guys don’t understand him. like jo is a grown man—he’s not weak, and definitely not laced with naivety. his decisions are something he can take responsibility for, which the author tells and wants to imprint on us a bazillion times.

remember what he said to ian in the start of s3? “i won’t avoid any of it. no matter what happens.” and i’m pretty sure he also said this to ian for the first time in s1. he chose ian and that’s his decision. he chose to not leave ian and be there for him even though he knows ian is hiding secrets. don’t also forget that jo is capable of protecting himself, and surprisingly ian, too. that guy has the GUTS to do anything just to protect someone precious to him. so, i hope some of you people should also stop spouting mindless words to ian for his actions, when in the first place jo is fine with how ian is as a person.

there’s just no connection.. like everything happened too fast

im still waiting...