
honestly i don't give a flying fuck about what happens to jiwook or jonghoon, i empathize with what they've been through but no one can ever make me like their character. taemin is so right and i was so glad he spoke out what i thought when jiwook laid out his backstory—he caused someone great suffering over something that could be easily resolved.
now i might souns like an asshole in that one, but it's true. everyone compares themselves to everyone, jiwook more so extremely because he was surrounded by people who did, but i swear to god he could've just had that conversation with his brother, maybe even went to therapy, lived a life without giving any fucks about being better than his brother or not because he is his own self, because his inferiority of being in his brother's shadow is NOT a reason to get your brother to be assaulted, bullied, and KILLED. not when your brother had absolutely done nothing directly to you.
i feel bad for him, i really do, but it's such a shitty reason to make someone off themselves when they had such a bright future ahead of them. it's selfish, immature, and psychotic. everyone goes through something, he isn’t the only one suffering. if he hadn't spent all the time looking himself and trying to look good he could've probably BE good himself if he just wasn't selfish enough to think about ONLY himself.
i don't have strong feelings for jonghoon, but i do have a big hatred for what he did to the old siwoon. i don't care how rough your upbringing was, none of that is a reason for you to commit assault.
fuck them both, i'm their beigggest opps. siwoon could have led such a nice life but he had that taken away from him because he was simply being himself. i do and i hope in this fictional little world, jiwook's life is fucked up ten fold than he did to siwoon's. that boy deserved better peers, better parents, and a better life. all because of that stupid inferiority, a life was taken.
ah, fuck them both they can stick their dicks up their asses and rub balls together but i hope siwoon haunts jiwook until he dies

i will always defend joonghyun and explain why he acts the way he acts but ts will never make me like that silver haired skank of a male lead
(yapping alert)
spoiler? ig but more of an observation for mc:
- i whole heartedly believe that mc wouldn't have ended up with childhood friend (lets label him as sml <second male lead>) because he just doesn't match his freak yk and by freak i do not mean literal rape just rough sex w PROPER d/s undertones that has PROPER COMMUNICATION, PROPER BOUNDARIES, AND IMMEDIATE DISCLOSURE OF A SAFEWORD IF MC REALLY WISHES TO STOP.
- i also believe that in that one ch. where mc inevitably chose to have a fuck sesh with ml over a good movie sesh w sml is because he unconsciously craves the foreign pleasure this asshole gave him (and believes that he won't be able to recreate with his own self) and one of the main factors of that is the sheltered life i presumed he lived because of that incident and with sml acting like his barrier from incels (love him) he wishes to experience that kind of experience again (seeing as he literally couldn't cum because he didn't think of using the backdoor) and because it is in humam nature to be greedy he chose to chase that pleasure over his safety and sml
- another factor to that and basically why mc makes dumb decisions because HE IS NAIVE !! BRO DOESN'T THINK SHIT THROUGH CLEARLY GOD HELP HIM. like he was naive enough to go alone in a get-together as an omega, without his alpha barrier sheild, and GETTING DRUNK LIKE OH MY GODD THIS POOR MAN and he was obviously going to get preyed on by asshole pieces of poop like that asswipe ml BUT HE DOESN'T THINK ANYONE WOULD DO THAT TO HIM BC HE'S THAT NAIVE??? I THINK bless his soul someone get him a proper partner his cute ass doesn't deserve this harsh reality of his comic world
- lastly, he's trying his best. my boy is clueless in some (maybe in most) departments but he knows what he's doing........................ i think

imo mc does not think that he could be able to bc it's not as easy to do so (but he certainly could once he finishes college and actually gains confidence in doing so w the help of someone from that community) & asshole ml fully takes advantage of that fact ..
+ the lives of these 2d lines will forever be in the hands of the author so yes, it is like any other bl classic where asshole dickweed ml takes the cake at the end of the day (in my own dreams i am the one who will eat mc's cake)

I FOUND YOU THE DEUS EX MACHINA OF MY WOEFUL LIFE I AM SHAKINH
THIS IS WHAT I LIKE TO SEEEEEE asshole ml literally kills himself just for redemption OH MY GOD THANK FUCK I FOUND YOU

here you go (●'◡'●) https://booktoki341.com/novel/5608481?book=BL%2FGL
the style upgrade is mint though im eating it up