that one panel wirh the big ass snake representing shin is cold as hell like imagine being so feared and capable that ppl's knees gives out just bc of u holy fuckk
heechan got em spidey senses he def knew sum was up (by the look on bum class press' brother we alr know bitch was insane tho)
if he gets married real soon im going to be so sad that i wont be able to jerk off to him ☹ he's so beautiful
i love seeing fictional straight men go from egoistic fuck boy to cheesy loving boyfriends for their twinks it's a trope that i will always eat up (my #1 fantasy since i learned how to grow a hard on )
i love it when the beach and the gays and the gays with the beach and gays
i cannot count with hand with how much these gay men be going to the beach like ,, they own the sand and sea atp
psa: uuh im not good w names. srry if i got them wrong
dawg ofc he's going to be ridden with guilt. when
searching for redemption, you do selfish shit sometimes that you'd think is best for the situation. you'd always feel guilt for what you've done, punish yourself for doing stupid shit while also making a stupid shit decision.
in this scenario, he knows he himself was a big factor as to why euihyun might think of killing himself. euihyun is a good person, a natural at taking care of life (of himself, taejoo, and others around him), so being the cause and effect of his miscarriage equalled to him thinking that he ultimately brings endless sufferings to euihyun. while he showers him with affection, he himself (taejoo) might think that he's only doing so because he /needs/ to repay for his misdeeds and wrongdoings (as he should) but he **only might** consider the fact that he's doing it out of /guilt/ rather than /love/.
so in the last attempt, or what i like to think is his final way of showing whatever affection he truly has for euihyun, he declares he wants to end it all. end euihyun's suffering, end taejoo's torment towards the person he had come to love, end everything between them so that euihyun could live without taejoo constantly bringing him misfortune.
but, we all know, that he wasn't the cause of everything. in fact, he had made shit decisions that still saved euihyun; that still showed that he cared, adored, and loved euihyun. it wasn’t his fault that euihyun fell into debt and it wasn't his fault he got assaulted by others who weren't him (except for that one time he dragged him into a brothel even though euihyun agreed to work there, he was still reluctant, hesitant, anxious, and clearly wasn't fully consenting to being touched by a stranger).
taejoo isn't a good person, but he isn't the worst either. he's shitty, but he isn't as bad compared to other shitty people and i know taejoo himself knows that. but at this point, his judgment scale leans towards him being "shitty" moreso than "not being the worst". taejoo is scared, he's extremely hurt for euihyun, he is angry towards himself, he's overwhelmed by the fact that he has finally got euihyun in his arms again, finally forgave him, and caused another "misfortune" for the person he loves. taejoo loves euihyun, and he is willing to do everything to let him stop hurting; to live and stop thinking about death.
im sad for the both of them. but i hope they actually separate from each other, sort their shit out without each other, become independent from each other, before meeting each other and deciding to try again or not in a different, healthier, circumstance.
i dont really get him ,, ik he's probably(?) a sociopath based at how he changes moods so quickly outta nowhere, but i don't get why he somehow went from ignoring(?) and not giving a fuck about peter (not to mention breaking his pinkie and assaulting him multiple times) to comforting him while he gets nightmares? i get "the possessiveness" bc peter is far different from anyone he's surrounded himself in his life (except for the extra weirdos) and he wants this completely pure person to keep liking him (likely to feed his ego? or fascination) but the sudden affection? where did allat come from?? ig ill have to reread ts to further understand ..
i get peter's vulnerable character and wooyeon's sociopathic behavior but i can never understand wooyeon's true feelings for peter. maybe i don't understand because i'm bad at cues and understanding someone, or maybe it's because wooyeon himself does not know what he truly feels towards peter, which is why he switches from being affectionate to destructive towards the poor man ..
idk igaf too much gang
"my guildmate next door" in another universe if the ml there turned into a twink
i shoulda just stayed clear from this story and read it when it completes WDYM THATS THE RECENT CHAPTER????@?@@?@#,#&÷^&#&##&#&
live laugh love intense gay sex with deep emotional plot with dark undertones
carion really got that toji fushiguro treatment like he appeared in the late chaps as an antagonist and died the same way lmaooo deserved i say