
Gotta say though, I really like how the author doesn't excuse his behaviour, rather they give you good reason for why he's so fucked up and why he's acting out in fucked up ways.
All the internalised fuckup-ery has got to mess with his his psyche and it shows

Yup I can’t like that a lot like a first give me a banded empress A lot but at least they don’t try to justify it it’s more like they’re trying to clarify why the fuck you’re so messed up in the head I need a Bandan princess it’s kind of like I’m just fine basically forcing into raping you making kind of pregnant and then destroying that life by force and then killing your father at least he killed the whole family at once and there was no torture involved like seriously

Oh don't get me started, I genuinely loathe Abandoned Empress. Yes, he was under the influence of drugs and other stuff in the previous life but the after effects of trauma of that magnitude just disappear?
I can't stomach it, their romance makes me sick and I would rather pluck my eyeballs out than read a chapter of that willingly

OK I didn’t read far enough to see about the he was into drugs and shit like that to know this but like if he still was in he did some voluntarily the first time what my problem is his backstory why he hated her pissed me off so fucking much it made no fucking sense I get you not liking her but she still is part of the woman that you were originally cared about I’m projecting that heat on to her is bullshit I get that you were a child but when you were old are you should’ve seen better he should not have done that he should’ve seen a better what the fuck
Currently feeling an indescribable urge to smack his butt