
Putting the bestiality part aside, the cousin only feeling remorse for turning him into beast and not also for touching the fiancee non-consensually is a bit infuriating. He made it sound like he's was doing a favour. My boy if you do that everynight and do not tell anybody else about it and the neglecting and the suffering, specially knowing the condition of your cousin, that DEFINITELLY doesn't look like you're doing a "favour" xD

I know he did out of "good intentions" but it was still so not okay. I'm not sure why I'm so pissed. I'm supposed to be used to this noncon stuff from reading so much yaoi (and there is so much noncon in the oldschool yaoi materials too) but I really didn't like how he actually crossed that obvious boundary/line. And that he continued it, coming everytime they finished doing that ritual.
I can see the "I'm just trying to help" sentiment, but it's really uncool that all this time it was Yamabuki touching Kaede when he thought it was Ren who was helping him finish. That's... That's fucked up, man. Even though there are darker yaoi/shounen ai than this, it just boils my blood especially when this intruder still interacts with you without remorse. It would have been easier to move on from it if the perpetrator hid away or stopped having contact with the MC, because at least that means they know they did wrong. He didn't even apologize. At least, apologize! I'm hoping he apologize for all the right reasons in the next chapter.
If any of you is going through a similar situation as MC let me tell you that you are not alone and you will be loved, give yourself a chance, and love yourself too, as hard as coming to terms with that might be! I support you!