
duke ; i love you
jace ; you love the sex?
duke ; no i love YOU
jace ; so you love doing it with me
duke; NO-

No joke I was Jace in this scenario a few years ago. There was this dude I had sex with he was so dreamy and I had no idea he loved me, we texted and flirted and all the while I was like "Ok tho you being too nice to me" "Well bc I wanna take things further with you" and my moron ass would be like "Oh you wanna do anal? Is that it?", or he'd say "Bc your happiness is a priority for me." and I'd be like "Is fucking me that good? Thanks.", once he said "I miss you a lot. Can't you come back sooner from vacation?" and I was like "Just fuck someone else for a while dude I gotta see this band live." and in the end the dude had to scream in my face I FUCKING LOVE YOU BITCH! I WANNA TAKE YOU TO DATES AND I WANNA INTRODUCE YOU TO EVERYONE AS MY GF, HOW TF ARE YOU SO SLOW, AM I NOT ALLOWED TO LOVE YOU? I WANNA MARRY YOU IS THAT SO DIFFICULT TO GET? and I was like wait what? Who, where, why.
I was so shocked with the idea that someone really loved me and wasn't just in it for the pussy so I blocked his ass the night of that confession. The most stupid part is I liked him back. Dumbass fo lyfe. What a mess it was.

You can, you just need a huge deal of self-hate stemming from childhood trauma lmao. Girl me too, I wish I had it again so I (probably) don't fuck it up this time. I wanna hit him up again but I am too embarrassed to contact the guy again bc I'm sure he moved on and will be like "Oh it's this stupid bitch I made the mistake of falling for again, it's been 3 years, what was your name again? Hey man, anyways. Look, this is my wife, we are expecting."

Ceren, I would be scared too, but I still take the risk, and hit the guy up again. There is this one guy from my past that haunts me. I give anything to have a second chance with him. But I don't remember the full spelling of his name. If I did, I would hit him up again, even if it was only to be friends. I would be sad if he was taken, but happy to be able to talk to him again. I have so many regrets, but not dating him was my biggest.

Same to everything except what I am scared of is not only him being taken, it's him being an abuser. That's what I meant by childhood trauma. I won't die waiting a year to contact him, but having abusers as parents I made many wrong decisions on whom to trust and whom not to. I need a reboot before getting back to the romance land.
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