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I hate that sangwoo didn't get to see what bum wanted to give him, and that the last thing sangwoo knew before he died was that he thought bum wanted to kill him and he was so mad and regret everything..and it breaks my heart that he kept calling bum's name before he died.
If only... if only they could've just died together instead. Remember Bum said he wanted sangwoo to die inside of him?
OK so here's the last scene that i wanted.
While together lying in bed, bum gave sangwoo the ring and told him how much he loved him, then they kiss together. While they're doing it( you know what i mean), sangwoo inside of bum, they are feeling each other, kissing each other passionately , then BAM! the house went on fire and they get burned together, hugging each other. And a tear fell down on bum's cheek while caressing sangwoo's face and sangwoo wiping bum's tear and tells him he loves him too before they finally both die. The end. :)
My ending. K bye. Imma go cry again :')

I woke up so many times cuz i kept dreaming about this after reading it. Though i always have bad dreams like I'm hiding or running away, this time i was also running away but Bum was there,i don't really remember but i know my dream was all about killing stalking, i think i woke up 4 times, and i only slept 5hrs. After that i tried looking at memes to make me feel better, i ate, i even studied. But....i just couldn't forget about the feeling, i had to stop studying, i ran into my room.....and bawled my eyes out. I had to let out this frustration and sadness i feel. Then i came back here i kept re-reading it, esp. the last chapter. I will keep coming back here until i get used to it that i don't feel pain anymore. ..shit :(
Tbh carsein is the most normal and sane one out of those 3 boys, probably because he hasn't been poisoned. I saw in the comment that allendis was poisoned as well? That explains his anger from before i guess, and he was also hallucinating at that time. Anyways I miss him whether he's a psycho or not. Haha