
It kinda hurt to read this???? Am I the only one?? Tf

Well yes, because we see a person suppressing their feelings towards their friend, as to not burden him with more affection that he might not need. And the person also suffers of suppressing their feeling, so it is natural to feel the pain of the MC and suffer with him.
I think at this point, before me even answering, you figured it out ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭
Wow wtf it's so hilariously disgusting lol