
Just everything is so heartbreaking, from tori, lalliete, and rupert. The fact that it heavily hints that lali is possibly going to take her own life, or disappear or something is fucjing with me. I’d hate to see that happen but at the same time if you were in her shoes, finding out the reason for in both of your lives you were the problem, and also a pawn to regain purity of nobility? The fact that they were most likely going to send her to marry lehan makes me even more sick but now I understand why he never saw her that way, he was probably always promised to be with her. She was never his sister to him, that was his future wife, the fact that she wanted NOTHING but her family to be safe, the fact that they used the info she gave them to plan better I just…
I’m at a point in this story where I just want Lali, Rupert, and Tori to be happy, but I fear that this is something we may not get, and this may be a tragedy.

This is honestly so infuriating, to witness your family be killed alongside you in your past life, to go out of your way to try and prevent it when you're given a second chance... Only to find out your family isn't your birth family, and have been deceiving you the entire time while plotting treason? Her brother is fucking insanely creepy, being into his sister regardless of blood they grew up together, her father keeping things from her despite her telling him and being open she was doing this for THEM. Her mother I won't comment on because she truly views her as her daughter and seems to know very little hopefully (as it was common back then to keep the homemaker in the dark) I genuinely feel like everyone but Lali knew and that's the upsetting part, from that blue haired "friend" whos into her brother who taunts her, to the blonde haired duchess we just recently saw, and that's what hurts the most. To find out the one thing that kept you sane, and helped you push through was deceiving you the entire time, I know people focus on the revenge and romance aspect but this series is just so good, from the slow burn and the complication. I genuinely feel for her so much, she's honestly one of my favorite FLs and Im excited to see what she does. I truly hope she severs ties with her father and brother to some extent, or makes it blatantly clear she cannot trust them going further, but keeps in contact with her mother. I just want her to have people she can trust, and its so upsetting that there seems to only be one
I’m blaming the emperor actually, i don’t care if i’m wrong this is his fault for moving her from a safe spot to a place with little fucking protection GOD