It's unfortunate. Had I read this when I was 12, I would have loved it. I don't necessarily mean that as a diss. But there are some works that I know that if I read it at a different, I would enjoy unlike the present. Same can be said with Twilight. Never saw or read it when I was younger but I am sure I would have been down bad for it. Tastes change, that's all.
Premise was interesting but the whole thing is just...bad. The ml wasn't the best, sure. But the uke beating him up thought he wasn't sure it was him? It's not even about being top or bottom in bed, the fact that he, an S-class esper, beating tf out of his guide who never fought back? Tf. And he never apologised. I can't believe it was swept under the rug. Ml may have been an asshole in the past but he seemed to have truly tried to change. The mc on the other hand was just not it.
Someone said ol this was short and a satisfying read for any mood. No. It just made my mood fcked.
Changed ? Coercing sexual favor while on duty ? Refusing guiding while being aware that Esper will get hurt the next day without healing ?
I'm not saying esper was 100% right to hurt him, but let not downplay what he did.
He actually got the beating he deserved in high school ..... This was so fucked up to purposely beat people to isolate someone.
He did not even got beat the amount he deserved, it's quite easy to guess the esper did not use his esper strengh. The guide would be dead if he did.
Let me just put this out there before everything else, these peps sure got some really rough pounding together. I've read literally thousands of bls over the decade but these guy sure are one of those thst do the do.
Anyway. I actually enjoyed this more than I thought I would. The thing is, I've read and tried to like 3p for so long. Often I read because I feel like reading smut. Im'ma be honest. But it's rare for me to have an appreciation with the plot of one. Why do I appreciate it here? Call me a hypocrite but because I never do think thst poly can work healthily. I've seen it happen to friends irl and damn can it get ugly. But reading this, it gives me an interesting perspective that it may be possible.
"Why tf would you say that seeing how these three are in this story which is only fiction? Imagine how worse it can be irl."
Well that's the thing. This is a fiction story with a shi ton of hard smut and rough edges but honestly, it's one of the most realistic 3ps I've seen. I've read so many and dropped many bl, bi, yuri poly stories and so many of them I believe had the same problem: they fit together too perfectly. With that, I want to especially stress the amount of time it took them to be that perfect so easily. I think it's bs. It's difficult for 2 people, how about 3? It's unrealistic. But here it's written well enough. I appreciate how the author brings up the importance of communication in one arc and then have them deal with that same concern again in the next arc. Why? Because we make the same mistake more often than we promise to not do them again. We see that so often irl, not only in romantic aspects.
Lastly (damn shi this is long? My backlogs of essays and research who?), I won't deny that these are some weirdos who are toxic in their own ways. But if I bring up normal and not normal, as a psychology student, I have too much to say about thst that this would triple in length. And anyway, they fit each other, one way or the other. Some puzzles get split in half, maybe for them they just got split into three. I'll think of them that way. I'm interested to see how this unfolds. Am I thinking of this as part character case study? Maybe.
Solid 4.5! Better than how I expected it to be given it's an idol story (usually is cringe).
I feel bad for them given the crazy-ass stalker. Thinking that shi like that (and worse) happens in real life is frightening af. As someone said, I hope the idols I used to stan are living a better life like this away from the cameras. If not, I hope they find their own kei-san whom they can have as an anchor despite the whirlwind in their lives.
Bottom is super annoying. He's an ass for treating the seme like his little experiment. The seme is also a fantastic dog—just comes and goes as he's told. Not to mention the power imbalance between a well-known photographer and a C-list model. They're so frustrating I couldn't bare to finish it. For it to be so long and only have them become a "couple" in the last chapter?











After 10 or so yrs of reading mangas, this has become one of my favorites. It's so warm and fluffy despite the underlying melancholy of the future