Definitely recommending everyone to check out the novel on NU. It is completed and the chemistry between them is amazing. The story is a romcom without much angst.
https://sugartranslations.wordpress.com/2019/10/22/ilyp-chapter-one-flag-raising-ceremony/ - you can find chapter 1-9 here
https://chrysanthemumgarden.com/novel-tl/ilyp/ilyp-10/ -here you can find chapter 10-63
https://csycrus.wordpress.com/chapter-64-ilyp/ -here you can find chapter 64- 72+ 4 extras
From what I can understand since Jaeshin doesn't see much worth in human life he can't really sympathize to someone's death but he also got news from his brothers that the prince doesn't have much time to live so he also either wants to prince to die peacefully or make him have the will to live. He is feeling really conflicted with himself because he can't understand what exactly he wants from the prince.





Oh my god. Jaeshin being so desperate for Nok is so delicious (≧∀≦)