
I firmly believe people sabotage their own happiness all the time.
You can tell he's so terrified of being loved because that means he might lose that love someday.
So instead of taking a chance, he'd rather just reject his chance at being with the person he loves with all his heart, in favor of being with someone who won't ever be able to truly break his heart, simply because they never really had it in the first place.

Well first loves are not always the ones that make you happy in the end. He can fall in love with another person and even be happier than he would've been with the first love.
But talking about this manga in particular, yes he's sabotaging his own love... But in a way it could be good. If the friend is really in love with him and it's not just interested (yep it can happen sadly) he will try to conquer him back. That would give him a boost of self-esteem and faith in the relationship maybe?

Still think Kanou is a rapist and a jerk.
And Ayase is an idiot for preferring him over Kuba.

i think its stockholm syndrome, which is why i started hateing this manga

I'm with you.
Not sure WTF giant eyes is thinking.
The man rapes him, then forces him into prostitution, after buying him as a human slave of course...
I just don't get how any of that is romantic.
This one turns my stomach.
The only reason I skim through the updates is that I keep hoping Ayase will wake the f*#k up, even though I'm fairly certain that will never happen.

ikr sheesh, cant belive its still going
I have this fear that rather than walking in on Lihuan fighting with the jerk/closet case, he's going to discover the two of them going at it in the showers...
And though it may seem odd, to me, that would be so much worse than seeing Lihuan fighting with him.