
it always hurts me when its gayxstraight. but I did not expect this to have more spice because it literally has everything that could possibly hurt u. It's unrequited, it's got two of his closest friends dying, the person he loves thinks he's someone elese, and after everything that he's done, he still didn't get him in the end, and he's got this scar that will surely never heal. but i hope it does. i hope he finds the person who'll help him stand up again. i hope that someone finds him. i hope there's still hope for him.

the fact that the characters' characteristics, flaws, and emotions are realistic makes me feel uneasy because it feels like im invading someone's private life, but like this is a good thing because that's how you know how well written this is. im not gay, but reading this manga made me believe even more that love is truly complex and beautiful, and it should be shared amongst others regardless of gender.
im not even gonna jump in the "who's worst" discussion, cus they all had their own faults and good points. blaming and hating them would not change anything. they'll never be perfect, and we're always gonna be hurt when their decisions don't match ours. i just wanna enjoy the feeling of belonging/relating to some of them. i wanna enjoy reading how they'll manage from here on, and what they plan to do.
thank goodness im wearing a face mask cus this just brought me different emotions and ive been smiling for ten minutes now. this is beautifully written. The plot's good. Both the uke and seme are consensual. and im a sucker for mild mannered seme/s but wild in bed HAHSGSJAHAGSG