*knows what a terrible person he is*
me:........sign it
did the art style change?? maybe ive just been reading too many other mangas but their features seem more exaggerated than usual
I don't think the artist was changed. The way they draw is still the same, I can recognize it since I want to be a webtoon author+artist in the future. (lol maybe one day you guys will read my webtoon one day (=・ω・=))
oOoooOOoo would love to can ya tell me when you create it one day?
yea ig ive just been reading too many others at the same time im used to binging, but yes if you get yourself out there i want to read it too
Hahaha that's why tho I am still at 11th grade, I'm learning my best to be as professional as much as I can, as someone who has been making comics since they were like 4.
I don't want my story to have a boring plotline or storyline, and I don't want my characters to be annoying, so before I see the story from an author's perspective I must see it as a manga fan reader first. It's extremely hard, as there's no support lol and I'm even considering the changes of it having an anime but oh well. I must make my dream come true. ╮(￣▽￣)╭
As an artist myself (and an Art Teacher as well), I'd say you should not get so ahead of yourself, do what you enjoy now that you're young, if you want to make annoying characters, do so, because even it seems bad, some of those characters are the best to develop and grow. Don't think on "possible anime" versions, and do what you really love while you're free. You will have plenty of time to worry when you grow older, now it's the time to experiment, to test narrative styles and to expand your horizons. You will have time to adhere to the rules.
I've been doing webtoons for a bit, and they might be underground and not bring me money, but believe me, they bring me joy and HUGE learning that I would not be having if I just stuck to what others expect me to do. In my case, having another job gives me so much freedom, but if you pursue the professional career of drawing webtoons, you'll loose that freedom quickly. In the end, to get money, you need to stick to what the maximum amount of readers expect you to do.
I do understand. But as someone who loves drawing a lot, I care a lot about the work I do, so I would like to make my works as perfect, well done, original and deep as possible. I do realize how much pressure I am putting on myself, I do admit it sometimes get very overwhelming, but never the less I want to plan ahead in the future, like when I make a part I wonder if it would surprise my imaginary readers and try to think of a way to represent it properly. My dream is to make a webtoon that would become successful, or at least something people would truly enjoy, maybe it'll make me feel proud of myself. Right now I'm experimenting on the story, characters and coming up with ideas and editing it, all the while while improving my drawing.
There's the fact that I'm soon to enter the most important year (12th grade) Tawjihi, which is the most feared, stressful and important year in every student's life, the Tawjihi tests' results will decide whatever university, career and other stuff you'll get, it's the year that would decide my future's whole career, so that in it's self is stressful. I'm planning to start officially publishing around end of university, so I must do my best to improve myself until then even with the little support I have because I want that dream to come true.. ^^
I understand what you mean, when I was younger I was so ambitious as that. But a whole depression later... I've come to see things different.
Do what makes you happy, and if you're truly happy with that, SURELY there will be someone who will enjoy.
With this I don't mean something like "you won't succeed". This and that are completely different things.
Just to enjoy the road ahead and to let life to put the pressure on you by itself. Experiment now, learn, fail, succeed... it is such a brilliant thing to do. Le tit happen now, later the pressure will be real.
At some point in life, I was pressuring myself and life as well, ended up with a diagnosed depression. I did accomplish a lot of things, but I don't think it was worth it. Seeing it from my point of view now... I missed those teenage days in which I could do whatever I pleased and publish on underground local fanzines.
20 years later, here I am, doing just what makes me happy and not what the world expect from me anymore.
And I am way more at ease.
Never lose track of what makes you happy. That is an easy path for artists unfortunately.
Lol.. saying it like that, I've a ready been extremely depressed for the last 7 years, and I don't even care anymore. I don't really want to be happy anymore lol.
I guess the pressure I put on myself somehow makes me feel sif only a little bit good.
I don't really want to talk about depression because that in itself is a very complicated thing, I vowed upon myself not to reveal to anyone I know anymore, because I've lost many people around me because of them knowing. Lol.
Although I do understand your words.
aww... i wish you the best luck in your success and don't forget to take care of yourself and enjoy the process and work. your best works are usually the ones that the writer/artist enjoys themselves^^ don't forget to take care of yourself and people who leave you because they knew you had depression are not good friends:(. I hope you will surround yourself with people who actually care about you and I hope I could come across your webtoon in the future (๑•ㅂ•)و✧ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~ ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶
It's a pity that my advice came late, you reminded me too much to myself and I know where that road takes you to.
As you have been told, friends who leave because of your depression, aren't friends.
I do suggest that you find help, I've been on therapy and it helps, you just need to find a therapist that you connect with.
And do not give up on happiness.
I wish you the best, and if you need someone to talk to, you can always send me a message.
All I can say is thank you guys. ^^
Although there was a precious friend I had to leave and block out of my life, she was my best friend for years, she is wise and kind, obsessed with cats and memes and an adorable bookworm who likes to think about philosophy and life, I did that about half a year ago and sent her a goodbye letter after a fight we had, it was because she was too nice, I know she would not be able to end the friendship, so I did, she did her best to help for years but I rejected her help, I WANTED to stay depressed, I do not want to let myself be happy anymore no matter what, we were both stuck in an endless cycle of pain, even if she managed to silence those thoughts for a while they would end up resurfacing again as if nothing happened.
She did her best even though I know she ended up mad and hurt about how she couldn't help and how I refused the help in the first place, I guess I realised then that it was like I was toying with her the whole time because I told her about my depression knowing I wouldn't let her do anything, knowing she'll have to just watch, Even though I warned her before telling. In the end, I one-sidedly blocked her from my life to free her from my tangles, even though I miss her a lot, even though I can't bare avoiding her at school. Ever since then I took a huge vow upon myself not to reveal anything about that dark side of me to ANYONE I know, knowing it would not end well and it would be pointless if they know. So I am not mad about those friends who left. I am happy for them that they managed to stay away.
Although I'm not foolish, I will still persue those dreams. Because really there's nothing else to do, as long as I don't end up dying.. that is. ^^
please don't do that.. If you keep keeping all your struggles to yourself and keeping yourself in one endless cycle in your life, it gets hard to just try stay living... Please consider just talking to an adult you trust about it. Even though it might be annoying, in the future, I don't think you'll regret about it. Sometimes the things you think will help and make you happy in the future are things that'll make you regret instead. I hope that's not the case here... I hope you will feel better.
I feel like u are very aware about ur surroundings and mabye too aware for ur own good. I also had a best freind who was also going through depression and ended contact with me. I still love her but i think she and me just werent ready idk i felt like she blocked me out similar to u ... but i have never hated or disliked her. Everyone has their own issues and phase. Thinking back all this is just a small issue i still love her and im sure she still loves me back nomatter the circumstances ... so long story short ( i still havent contacted her yet but thats fine) there is a time and im sure in the future where iwill be ready to reunite with her. In conclusion dont blame urself too much, these things occur and its not ur fault. Be kinder to urself and i guess be open. I have a feeling she would accept u back if u ever reach out to her again. Also school is a mess but when u finally graduate you will have more freedom and wont have to think on this problem too much. Uni can also be a pain in the ass but its better than high school. I mean just let go i guess everyone changes and life moves on. You will be fine. Cry when u want to cry, scream when u want to scream. Its ur life. I know its easier said but done (i still find it hard) but love urself. Anyways wish the best for u.
Thanks.
I'm glad someone has gone through the same experience even if it's you who were blocked.
Yes. For me I'm actually waiting until I finally finish high school.
Even so. I don't want to cry, it's stupid coming from someone who always says there's nothing wrong with crying, but it makes me feel pathetic.
You see I can't HELP but blame it on me. Because really had I not told her or any one else, things wouldn't have been the same, even though it made us deeply connected to each other.
I saved money the past month, and had planned to give it to her in an envelope with no sender name for weeks. It's for all the gifts she once bought me, I felt like I had to return it cuz it honestly felt like she wasted the money on me. I still felt low and ashamed.. I thought of it, from her way, she never once regretted buying me a gift and she was happy about it, she never wanted me to return any money, but I still had to do it. That envelope... was the last step for me. To end everything. That's how important it was.
I spent the whole night before awake, preparing it, learning origami tutorials to make the envelope itself and investigating their class schedule so I could find a time I can put it when she isn't in class. I put did it and put it in her pencil case and left.
She called my name that day after we got out of the bus but I walked away fast without looking. I clearly wrote 'don't come to me' and 'you are free now'.
Exactly a week ago (10th of November)
She grabbed my friend's arm at the start of break, and gave them a letter on the side, she enthusiastically greeted me like usual and I just stared at her with utter shock and pulled my friend with me away, my friend gave me a letter and said she'll be in the classroom and I just ran up the stairs, the empty stairs and sat under the big locked rooftop door. I opened the letter... it was my letter to her, 2 years ago we wrote letters to each other and agreed not to open them until 2 years had passed. I read the first sentence and I just started crying, she underlined a few sentences with red like "I wish you are happy now" "I hope we stayed friends" "have hope" "I know it's going to be hard". I spent the whole break (30 minutes) crying 4 times. I was also 10 minutes late to Maths, my friend was shocked to see my face even though I tried to hide it.
I told my friend to give her a small paper telling her why she is doing this when I'm trying to free her, she also replied to me again.
And that day I unblocked her on messenger, and we talked a lot.
Talking to her again, I know I'm going to regret it.. but after that letter I don't know anymore, she just ripped the fabric of my mind. It's weird talking to her again, I feel like we are deeply more connected than before. It's weird.. but warm.
Now, she is trying to make me send an anonymous letter to the school counselor, even though I refuse it.
I do understand your worry.
But I don't really think they'd understand. They'll only make it worse, they'd assume, and then try to give me advice when they don't really understand a thing, thinking they made me a favour by doing this. They'd tell me to just be positive and all that.
And I mean.. if I'm keeping myself depressed, and don't want to change, involving others when I won't let them help would be like toying with them in the first place.
I mean I can't really imagine that joy everyone seeks for and the idea of true happiness. It doesn't even last, why should I be chasing after it?...
It's my only way, to keep my pathetic self punished that's just what I think.
My friend... I don't know about the counsellor thingy. But I have a bad feeling about it.
My letter is also STUPID. Even so.. just once..
I want to listen to her....
your letter isn't stupid. its okay to want to be happy. you didn't do anything wrong. its fine to want to surround yourself with people you care about. itll probably just hurt them more that your distancing yourself. and if they're your true friends, they're only doing it because they care and they worry about you not because of what you think. and youre not toying with them. any relationship is a give and take relationship and its okay to vent about your problems. yea sometimes i don't even get the idea of why everyone seeks true happiness but i think most of the time, to seek happiness is to run away from your current stress and problems. and i personally think it's okay to run away from your problems becasue sometimes from there you can find a solution. its also not healthy to constantly worry. i think you don't have to talk to a counsellor necessarily tho even tho i said bfor... maybe just keep your close friend next to you. just do whatll make you yourself the most satisfied with.
how could the mangaka deny me a scene on the 69th chapter Σ( ￣□￣||)
ok that dude just planted a seed of doubt in haesoos head about taku being involved with these other models and i wonder how hes gonna settle these two relationships he has bc rn neither of them are good
Sorry, I meant to like it. ╮(￣▽￣)╭
so i was right before the art style is getting worse adeles eyes are taking up 80% of her face and her face is so small now it makes me uncomfortable and the duke isnt as cute anymore :///// whyd u do that it was so good