
...Finishing this felt like a nightmare. It's like eating your favorite ice cream but it splattered on the ground. It's like going out cuz it's a shiny day, but there was a downpour that left you sick and bedridden for days. It's like when you saved up money for a gift but then that gift got wrecked before you can even wrap it.
The feeling is horrible because I'm craving more.
I just read Life Senjou no Bokura a few days ago, and I vowed to myself that I won't cry as hard again. Lo and behold, 12 chapters in and I'm bawling my eyes out.
I don't think I ever hated a fictional character as much as I hate WuXen at this point in time. I'm just glad that ZhiShu found the courage to be happy again for the remaining days that he has because he definitely deserves someone better. He deserves at least this farewell - somewhere quiet where he can live in peace with someone who loves him. It's the least the world can offer before taking him away.
I was also curious on whether the title is from WuXen to ZhiShu considering he started the affair 4 years after their decade old relationship. I feel bad for WuXen, but at the same time he deserves the heartbreak.
...Thinking about WuXen still makes my blood boil. I don't feel bad anymore.