
Dropping it after reading the raws. I just can't help but feel bad for the one left out. If you make a decision you suck it up and deal with it, you don't go poking your nose in other people's relationships. I don't even know how Hotaka feels. To me he's just accepting everything like he doesn't even care...

It's for download tho
http://www.yaoiotaku.com/forums/threads/49794-Mamanaranai-Mon-de-✲-ASOU-Kai-JP

The fuck is with this ending. Yeah the best thing after getting violently raped is to have lots of sex with another guy (a guy you humiliated over and over for whatever reason) and let's go out!!! Wiiii!! Happiness and flowers for everyone. Also, when the hell did the uke fall for the seme? After forcing himself on him or after giving him up to some girl because he felt like it?
Seriously?
This is not just rushed, it's nonsensical. whatever. The only think I liked was the art and it was outshined by the plot

Uhm, he realized he was in love with Hayase (seme) when he saved him from the high school art (?) teacher. From that point on, he was sure he was in love but even before that he felt like Hayase is somewhat special to him.
And the sex after getting raped: 1) sexual gratification for readers and 2) surge of feelings kind of moment because they finally admitted their feelings. It's entirely impossible. And the story is not trying to be perfect. I think the author knows how limited the chapters are and really tried his best to fit the story in 4 chapters. The potential is there after all.

You can't give the 4 chapters thing as an excuse. There are one-shots infinitely better than this crap. There are masterpieces that just have 3 or 4 chapters. So no, this is a pretty bad manga and is not or the limited chapters.
Honestly, I don't know why most of the people who read yaoi manga always find attractive this type of... things. You need to demand better works! Have more standards.

Firstly, this 'sexual gratification' you speak of just makes the story more ridiculous and I'm sure a lot of people don't wanna see it. Secondly, no rape victim would want to have sex right after the event, even with someone they loved. In a way, the rape is being brushed off by the fact that the seme is 'erasing' the rapist's germs or whatever by doing him, and that is not how it works at all. The story doesn't have to be perfect, but the author could have done so much better, and without the rape too. If they had wanted more chapters to tell their story, they easily could have just made another volume. In the end, I would say that it had potential, but the author just isn't good at storytelling.

Addressing both Hota-chan and RiriMay
I don't think authors can just "do whatever they want with their stories" they have editors who demand them and limit them on what they can and cannot do. There're also publishers that control them further. There's a lot of restrictions. And I am not saying this is a good story. It had a good plot but executed poorly. What I can sense from the style was the author wrote the story as if it's a whole volume but couldn't adjust to efficiently deliver the story within 4 chapters. It's a hit and miss for readers and writers, as well, and it's not as if this particular author has wrote a lot. Great authors have shitty and mediocre ones, too before making their hits.
And the "no rape victim", hasty generalization, I'd say. No matter how minute the cases are, there could be people who can. But yeah it was a scene to brush off rape. Though, dissecting the scene, the fact that Ayumu was "saved" may set a psychological comfort on the victim vs a victim who was rape thoroughly, no one knowing about it and must carry the burden on their own. Thus you won't see Ayumu sulking and depressed for being raped, plus it was Hayase who saved him and they were able to admit their feelings. The sex marathon was indeed an overkill, but Ayumu not being overly down is possible.
And I am quite a quality snob myself but consuming media you get to dissect things. It's not always about the plot, the art is always to look forward to. Gems are those that hit both areas while those that don't is still good to check out and appreciate, because there are those that fail on both. It's a learning ground for these authors.
Who the hell agrees to get married just like that. Does he even know him? So frustrating