Bro I’m sorry but the MC is so stupid bruh .. ML is just this typical possessive ass guy right but bro mc.. all ur story revolves around how you’ve liked him for so long.. even when the ML says shit like ”yeah I’ll stay forever with you just stay by my side and don’t abandon me, I’ll even be ur DAD so we can be family.. oh well we can go to America and get married” like u heard him say allat those shits and u know he gave u special treatment literally it’s so obvious and u say shit like ”he’s confused he doesn’t have any feelings for me” like girl bffr he’s literally willing to do all these stuff and chasing after u, having SEX W U and ur out here talking about he doesn’t like u like bro ok ML doesn’t even realize his feelings but he legit felt this way towards MC from the VERY beginning.. like if my best friend was clingy and hella possessive with me and didn’t even mind sexual shits and going on dates or even dating like girl u don’t even have to ask like yeah take that chance??? Ur best friend wants u in all type of forms bro even being ur caretaker so how r u out here thinking he doesn’t love me.. this MC so fuckass retardation while talking about how ML is different from others.. like okay man .. 60 chapters of MC being a dumbass with delusional syndrome
It’s very cliche but hoping she at least doesn’t sympathize with him at first so it’s kinda like karma.. ML broke many girls heart that acted like MC (bruh everyone in the story is fked upnot MC) so when ML gets a taste of his own medicine would be at least nice to see at first so he goes more batshit crazy or whatever haha (how those girls became obsessed w him and now he’s obsessed w her) and HOPEFULLY she doesn’t forgive him so fast
Bro this is an actual masterpiece about first love, relationship and how nostalgic, missing that person is.. especially when u relate to these characters.. mc first love took him for granted and that is his consequence cause he’s suffering and trying to move on. Mc now love obviously has relationship problems that you see on daily, but in the end it pretty much works out.. they choose to compromise with each other and stay together.. it made me cry.. it’s kinda sad but especially when ur relating with this story.. it kinda leaves me with a peace of mind of my past relationship I had with my first love.. we went on and off.. almost codependency with each other for years but at the same time he needed his needs, didn’t want a relationship and didn’t want to take the effort.. while I was wondering if he loved me or not because then why did he always come back to me? Always failing ending the whole shitty cycle we had.. it’s been months since we last talked to each other because I told him to fuck off if he didn’t want to put effort.. I think I’ve made my peace though. I don’t care if he loved me or didn’t love me, or used me to make himself feel better. But everytime I remember our nostalgic moments it kills me inside because I did see how he tried but the circumstances of our ”relationship” or me and him was.. different and difficult. He couldn’t really work on himself.. he always told me that I’m the only person he really cared for, how he’s not close with anyone as he were with me. Maybe in the end it was just codependency, and I needed more than what he could give me. And by the time we talked together, maybe I was delusional thinking he might’ve love me because why’d he talk to me if he didn’t? I don’t think the question is whether he truly loved me or ”cared” about me. I remember asking him that question and.. tbh it’s more like he ”didn’t” know because the circumstances of me and him was that he didn’t want to commit to any relationships cause it takes too much effort and he wanted to die in the future i guess bruh. Also our age difference was also a big factor with this. But in the end it’s not about him, it’s about me. I ended up wasting my adolescence years on him that I’ll never get back. He never could end the shitty cycle of us no matter how many months we didn’t end up talking to each other, he’d somehow come back.. and I let him back in. Taking time and making peace with what led my relationship with this asshole take this long to finally realize that I deserve better and I can live without him which I knew from the get go but while I’m with him, those thoughts turn into ”I can’t live without him really, what am I supposed to do?” We had a trauma bond together. But finally now it feels like I can take a breathe and find clarity with my first love. Ofcourse in the future I’ll think back and be like ”holy shit that was so cringe it was literally online I must been a depressed dumbass.. anyways” LMAO but yeah in the end it doesn’t matter what he truly felt for me or what I thought our relationship could be like, what he could turn out to be.. I’ve made my peace with this and I can finally move on thinking about my future and what I want to do. The thing is relationships and males I’ve never even taken a interest for. He was the first one to show me romantic love and I kept holding on to it.. what he will do in the future or how life for him is now, it doesn’t matter and I don’t care. Now I know that I’ll never put with this kind of thing with anyone ever again. This time I’ll find someone that want to be with me truly and compromise with me. This is really a masterpiece work.
And umm.. if u kept reading to the end on this, thanks for reading into my shitty vent yapping talk about my first love. Have a great day!
What goes to show is that love is not enough. I feel love for so many people but I am self-aware aware enough to know that it is a choice to make people feel loved. Feelings come and go but cause and effect is a law, which means that those who know how to love and be loved will recognize your effort and will love you back. Sometimes when one isn't healed the best thing they can do is let go, but that's a hard thing to do when your brain craves dopamine, so people tend to develop short-term relationships that provide immediate relief and eventual pain.
Yeah, I agree with you. Sadly I wished some people would actually make an effort to work on themselves/heal or compromise.. but I guess so many people really just don’t wanna do shit.. my ex was just waiting until he wanted to die(suicide) I guess but I understand cause I’ve been there. But when you’re all about ”no I don’t wanna make effort I’ll just die and whatever idc imma do wha I want blah blah” like ok but these people crave relationships, and the benefits of the emotions like dopamine.. cause it’s in their needs because ur body craves it!! So at least treat people around yourself better. So many people are so entitled to things it’s dumb! Why go back and start new things when you know ur a shitshow urself? The audacity of these people.. and then they leave behind traumatizing experience/pain just because their so insecure and depressed themselves!! Oh well this also taught me to definitely not deal with these people again
Yep, exactly... They end up repeating the same patterns, not breaking the cycle because they are scared of uncertainty. But uncertainty, the unknown, it is part of reality and life. Growth and healing require us to be brave, not safe. Some people learn this intuitively, others learn it after facing reality and others never do, but it's not up to us. Keep protecting your energy the best way you know how.










Bro I’m sorry but please for the love of god stop normalizing pedophilic behavior.. OLD MAN U KNEW HIM SINCE A MIDDLE SCHOOL.. why so old!!? And why is he the 2nd male lead!!? Like I get it if he was the main love interest, but he’s not and the story revolves around MC and ML .. and he’s there.. but author made him have hots for MC.. like bruh I can’t plz it’s just annoying, why have a side character and write him like this? The huge age gap and when he met him as a kid.. and idk how people find this old man hot too.. nah it’s so weird man